the truth will free your soul

so maybe what i needed was a little time off...cus everything seems to be comming to play...things are making sence in my mind. hence why i am posting a lot. im figuring things out and it is making sence...

1: i live in a fantasy world.
2: im so immature...
3: i judge everyone and dont expect judgement back
4: i think i know more then everyone
5: i make snide comments but cant back them up
6: i make WRONG judgements
7: i try and make people like me
8: i will do anything to better myself
9: i feel alone most of the time cus it keeps people out
10: im an attention whore...i will do anything for attention
11: i lie a lot
12: i wanna fall in love but dont want to take the risks
13: i do things to fit in
14: i am clinically depressed...but a lot less then i let on
15: im not who you all think i am...im a fake

so there you go...no more 15 statements about other people...here are 15 honest statements about me...and im going to do something else...im going to make 15 honest statements about other people...but im going to make them all nice statements...and im going to put peoples names...the walls are down...im breaking them down and being honest

1. emma-leigh...what is there to say about you that i have not already said? i love you

2. Martha...no matter what you have been there...you know what i went through and you were my support for the last little bit

3. Jill...you are amazing. again helping me with the whole stupid thing. one of the few who knows me...you always make me feel better

4. Devin...you rock my world...we talked alot in the beginning...and you are there for me...

5. Amber...you always make me laugh...and you are totally fun to hang around with...you were the one that invited me to the picnic where i met everyone

6.Courteney...i would not be the person i am today if not for you. you taught me how to stand up for myself and not take other people crap.

7.Jo...you were right...he dont hate me...but thanks for listening to me...and for being there

8. Ashley...we totally got to hang out more...those bus rides were so much fun

9. Nikki...i love talking to you in your car...we share a lot of the same ideas and i really appreciate the talks

10:Alleah...all i can really say is thanks...

11. Kaitlyn...you were the first one to talk directly to me at the picnic...and i will never foget that..i was so scared and you made it easyer for me to talk to the others

12. Rick...you have no idea how much you helped me since i met you...you helped me see i was hurting myself and you are always there with hugs when i need them

13. Geoff...i dont really know you that well...you seem really awesome and you drive like a crazy person...

14. Chris...what havnt you done for me?

15. this is a general note to all cus i dont have any more numbers...just cus you are not on here dont mean i got nothing to say...i really do appreciate every word you guys have said to me cus im not easy to talk to...every hug and every thing. heart you all...

it feels very good to get this all out...i dont know how much more i can say here other then heres the song that inspired the post...and of corse it is an AMV :P