Go All The Way Into Twilight!

I decided to share my story from the 100 monkeys show in April cus so many people have been asking me about it... i kept some details to myself ... like some things I talked to the cast about... I find posting that kinda stuff is a little weird... That's just me though....

I'm going to get back into blogging... I probably wont post a lot of twilight related stuff... cus I'm not in Vancouver *tear* but I will post somethings that I hear (maybe)

I'm so freaking excited about the up coming 100 monkeys show!!!! I can't stop smiling about it!!!! I was bouncing around at work tonight.... it was a little insane!!!

anyhoos.... Its kinda later and I have to finish watching my movie before i go to bed... I leave you with ....

THE BICYCLE JOKE!!!

Backstage Lounge April 12th

so i got to the concert at about 7:30, it was in a lounge. I met some cool people and hung out with them. Jackson and the other guys in the band we're all walking around. we were sitting in the lounge part kinda thing and all of a sudden one of the girls i met came like running over freaking that the cast is here. of coarse you couldn't get anywhere near them cus of the security,

so i gave up and went into the crowd to get a good spot. so the monkeys start heading up to the stage, i got to talk to two of the Ben G and Jerad and Jackson was like standing behind me and bumping into me (yum lol) the show starts and i look over to my right and there is Nikki and Kristen. i said "holy shit" Nikki turned around and laughed and said hi. few mins after that i look behind me to see where my friend went and BAM there is Taylor and Kellen and peter.

so the show went on and me and Nikki keep like bumping into each other...Nikki and Kristen ended up going to the front of the stage. and now beside me is Taylor. i said hi and made a comment about him being underage

and he laughed and said he was. so we kept kinda chatting about things like him being really cooking in the black hoodie he was wearing. he said he was sooo hot and i told him to take his shirt off and cause a riot. so then the security guy comes over and asks if all is good. the girl Taylor was with said all was good. the guy looked at me and i said i was being good and Taylor backed me up. so then i asked him if someone was molesting him and he nodded and said yeah. so the guy heard that and asked if Taylor was alright and he said he was and that he had "this girl on this side (the girl he was with) and this girl on this side (me)" and he pulled me closer to him.

then Taylor went up front with Nikki and Kristen, so now I'm standing beside Ashley and Ian (Boone from lost) Ashley is like the nicest person i have ever met. we talked a bunch that night about the movie and how much people love her. so after chatting with her for a bit i get taped on the shoulder, so i turn around and peter says "Kellen wants you" it was this game he was playing where he would tap someone and then look all innocent and shit. I asked Ashley how they ever got things done on set and she said it wasn't easy.

so then Ashley and Ian are about to leave the crowd i taped Ian on the shoulder and told him it was nice to meet him and he kissed my hand. so i back up in the crowd a bit cus its getting really hot in there and i run into Kellen. so i asked him for a hug and he gave me one (like a big squish your boob kinda hug) so I'm still really smoking hot so i go outside to have a smoke and who comes out after me... Kellen Ashley and Ian. so we talk with them for a bit, talked with Ian about living in BC and talked with Ashley about people freaking out about the cast smoking in pictures and just talked... so then I went back inside to watch more of the show...got some videos of them playing... we got two encores :P it was great!!

and then the show was over and everyone left... i did get a chance to poke Kellen back :P

THIS IS AN OLD WRITE UP FROM THE SHOW IN APRIL THAT I HAVE DECIDED TO SHARE! HOPE YOU LIKE IT :)

here's some videos :P in some of them you can see Kristen, Nikki, and Taylor dancing :P

Maybe I Wasn't Made For This World...

I cant believe i let dad hurt me again. im such a fucking idiot... all was going pretty good... then he missed billys grad, then went camping when he said he couldnt afford it. then he cut my mom off $400 ... and now she has to get a job and i have to take care of my sister... this is really fucked up

You Would Kill For This...

OCTOBER 13, 2004
"wow so many things to say how to start? how 'bout 'life sucks' yes that will do fine. im 16 and single guess that sumes it up. "

first post on a blog, almost 5 years ago... that just seems so crazy to me now. I was such a different person back then... I was 16 now I'm 21... I was soooo innocent back then... its kinda fun looking back. I didn't drink or smoke... I was very sheltered. I look at 16 year old now and I can't believe it.

Back then I tried so hard to be accepted, I wanted to be loved and have all the attention. I didn't care about school, I never thought about life after school, cept to think it was going to be great. Go to college, get a good job, get married... all done...
yeah right... that sounds a lot easyer then it really is. Life is so much more difficult once you get OUT of high school. Working bites the big one.

I'd like to think I've grown up since then. But I don't think I have come as far as I should have. Life just seems to have stalled right now for me. I work a crap job with no hope of advancing. I can't afford to go back to school, I have a hella debt. BUT over all I'm happyer then I was back then. I love the people who have stuck by me, I've repared family relationships... As a person I am better. I don't always let the little things bug me anymore. I don't regret my past, I live everyday. Maybe not to the fullest but as least I live it. And that is a blessing in itself