I Throw My Hands Up In The Air Sometimes

2 weeks done !! LOL its been pretty awesome so far. the schooling is heavy... but the people so far are awesome... the drama has yet to present itself lol we'll see how long that goes. working my first show on lights since high school... lordy I missed it... I missed theatre in general so freaking much... I was not born to work retail. I love working in the creative field and theatre right now is my genre. That may change but for now this is what I am doing. I am def going back for a third year at VIU. The teachers there are some of the best so why bother dealing with moving next year? Going to UBC wont teach me anything that VIU can't. I wont get the same degree but I'm ok with that. School will only take you so far. You have to get out and work and having a teacher that is still working in and around theatre is invaluable.

after that... who knows. I love music and tech but I'm not that big a fan of musicals... BUT techs work on rock shows. Thats kinda where I see myself. Thats what I wanted to do two years ago and I think that would be the best job in the world. Long hours, working tech, traveling... I'm so there! those were the best times in high school. working the festivals is awesome!

Can We Pretend...

That Airplanes In The Night Sky Are Like Shooting Stars?

I been thinking again. Last monday I went to Emma-leighs smoothie night... and I needed it. I needed to be reminded of friends that arn't going anywhere. Last time I attempted college I was stuck in the past. I was caught between not wanting to make new friends and trying to replace those I had. What I had in high school is never going to happen again. That was special and the people are special. I have to remember this year that I have friends that are going to be there not matter what. And to just be me... Not try and fit in where I do. Be completely un-afraid. I had the option this year of not taking acting. But I want to for the simple fact of gaining confidence in front of people. I want this year to be completely different from the last time. I have a lot to prove. Mainly to myself. Its going to be a hell of a year. I have 7 courses. Thats a hell of a lot. I need to learn to ask for help. I need to stay focused.

I still have no idea what I'm doing next year. There are a few options I am looking at. School can only take you so far. You need to actually get out there and be! I know of a few people who are just kinda floating around right now. So maybe the goal is just to learn as much as I can and move to Vancouver. We'll see!