so not ready

i want to go back to high school already...i havnt even started yet and i dont want to go...fucking rash desicisions...this wasnt in the plan...well neither was John dying but things happen...and now i am going to school ... to a new theatre... i want my old theatre...i knew who i was there...i knew my place and not to over step it...i worked for three years to get to where i was in that place and i liked it...i ran that fucking place...well with courteney but i never listened to her anyways...i dont like going back to the bottom...at least Nabil will be in some of my classes...and on the bus...and hopefully in some plays...*crosses fingers* i love doing shows with him...last one was Midsummer and it was a fucking blast...*sigh* midsummer...fuck that was the best show...oh man that makes me miss my theatre even more ><>< ) i really dont know what to do anymore...it just isnt the right time for me yet...stupid desision...im sure im going to have a fucking blast...once i get to know people...cus right now...im all alone...and that is the worst feeling ever

Camping <3

woot i heart camping!!! i am sooooo sore though...in one day i went caving, swimming, and then swam horne lake...which is a really big lake...i did it at night to...it was a little scary...and then the next day i went swimming again...well i didnt mean to...i kinda typed a canoe ... it was cold and wet...i will write more later but right now i am tired and soooo sore...my back and my legs are seizing up...kinda painful :P

camping

wonding why i am up this eary??? cus i got to go to camp sillys :P i'll be back around 7 tomorrow night..im going to miss my blog :P

wow

it is totally amazing how things work out...

a few weeks ago i went looking at my old school...i moved when i was 6 from this great town, burnaby, and moved to this town...nanoose...so i kinda miss it there...i am such a city kid...but anyways...i was looking at my old school...and then i decided "hmm i wonder what high school i would have gone to" so i looked it up...caraboo high (dont even fucking know how to spell it but whatever) and then smart me decided to go look up that school on Myspace...well i only found one person in my would be grad class..i thought what the hell and emailed her...i asked if she knew some people that i was best friends with and spent all my time with...well she does...she knows my best friend...who i miss sooo much!!! but i might on a hope get to talk to them again...i hope very much so...there are just so many things that i want to ask them...mainly if they missed me as much as i missed them...which i doubt but who knows...and it would be nice to know what they are all doing now...i knew these people in kindergarden and we were tight :P but i dunno...i should have done this years ago but i am always a little slow on things and there is no time liek the present :D

my tattoo :D

lookie!! i designed it myself!!!! now i just need the money to get it!! :D

i went and saw my old theatre today...and it has all changed o.O the seats are no longer orange...they are blue...and there is no more yucky carpet...well on some of it...there is no more paint spot that me and kendra did :P

it has all changed...and i start college in a week...one week...wow

haha oh dear

totally changing this post...dont want people to see such things ><

anyways...tattoo desigen is done and should be up tomorrow :D

Get Better!! <3

BJ please get better!!!! <333 i still have to come and visit you!!!! you're drama kids need you!!!!

HOLLA!!!

oh my lord...last night was so fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!

i went to courteneys bday party...didnt think it would be this fucking fun...but it was...i got there at 8 and we kinda just chilled...talked...untill the vodka came out...then *cough* it got fucking awesome...there were so many new people there...like tons...but it was awesome...we basically listened to the live band and talked and drank...untill people started going off by them selfs...so i went walking...ran in to someone sleeping in the car...found out somethings i didnt know about him (and no NOTHING happened...i dont do that stuff...even when drunk) but we talked for about...2 hours...it was really really nice...we talked about John...he is the first person i talked to that knew John really well...and it really helped...so after taht i went inside...talked with other people about some pretty hard times in my life...which i found out that i talk alot when drunk...but that was getting boring cus they were going to bed...so me, Emma-leigh, Mandy and two of Nabils cousins went into the camper...and i descovered speaker phone...so i called up my friend and we talked for a bit...well me mandy and emma talked...the boys just kept saying random things...like "holla at you booooiii" oh man...remember that we are drunk out of our minds at this point...but that got boring too...we were about to sleep when Max came in...let me tell you...max is the funniest person i have ever met...we couldnt call anyone cus it was like 4 in the morning...but we left voice mails....well mainly max did...if you want to hear them i have them on my phone...so that got boring too...but there is never a dull moment with max...whenever we were about to kinda sleep...max would say random things....like "sercetly i like boys" or he would start singing...or getting stuck under a curtian...or making noises...

all in all...fucking funny night...but i got a killer hangover...i got home and passed out!!! cant wait to do it again :P

3 months

John...fuck it still isnt the same without you...3 months it has taken me to actually realize you are not comming back...which is hard...you are missed like no other...you were a floater and friends with EVERYONE! you got your freedom and that is what you wanted. from the moment you steped on to my street you changed my life...you were the reason i stopped cutting and you made me stick up for myself ... i miss you more then i ever thought i would...RIP buddy...this ones for you

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelfIn good health and good time.
Tattoos of memoriesand dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth,it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.


RIP Alberta John, AJ, Johnny Boy, Rasta Man, John Coogan the 5th
Live on in our hearts! <333

"Fighing On Arrival; Fighting For Survival"

Thats the way I like it!!

wow tonight was a blast...i thought it was going to be boring...but really it wasnt...

met up with a kid who is the second funniest drunk person ever...last time i was with him he put an empty beer box on his head and let me take a picture...this time?? he was just keeping us in stickes...too bad i dont remember any of them ><>

ok enough about that...topic changed,...more about tonight
it was just so fucking funny... i do remember almost crying i was lauging so hard...it was a good time...although the guy wouldnt let me have any vodka...stupid meanie...oh well...

i get enough of that tomorrow...coutreneys bday is going to be soo much fun :D lmao...cant effing wait...kinda pisses me off cus i didnt have an 18th bday :( i didnt even really do anything

i sat home and cried...not one of the better bdays all in all...i wanted to have a party but...i worked every friday and sat untill this weekend...and now i am booked...I HAVENT EVEN BOUGHT PRON YET!! O.O i know tis weird...and sad

anyhoos...my mind is buzzing...got to go!!!!

~Michelle~

"I'll show you my glowstick ;) "

survey

Have you Ever...?
Played Spin the Bottle?:	many times...it is a must for green room fun :D
Toilet Paper someone's house:	hahaha noooo *rolls eyes*
Played Poker with money:	pennies yes
Gone swimming in a white T-shirt:	white shorts without knowing it ><
been tickled so hard you couldn't talk:	hahahahaha oh yeah...right FB :P
like someone but never told them:	many times
went camping:	im a girl guide...hell yes
had a crush on your broher's friend:	yes but he will never know
walk in the rain without an umbrella:	yes i love it
told a joke that NObody thought was funny:	yes i do that a lot
been in a talent show:	nope
started laughing at someone's bedtime:	my brothers
worn somthing your mom didn't appove of:	yes
been to a nude beach:	no
drank jack daniels:	yes
cursed in a church:	yes...i forgot i was in a church
been called a slut for kissing someone:	yes
burnt yourslef with a curling iron/straightner:	yes and it fucking hurts
wanted to be a police officer:	yes
dumped someone:	no
been hit on by someone too old:	fuck yes ><
wanted to be a model:	no
bought lottery tickets:	no
made out in a car:	no i do not think so
cried during a movie:	yes...i watch to many sad movies
wanted something you couldn't have:	yes
had sex on the beach:	no sand in not fun places ><
had the drink sex on the beach:	yup
seen someone shoplift:	yeah
hung up on someone:	yes
yelled at you pet:	yes...my dog is soo stupid
bought a thong when the casheir was a guy:	ahaha i dont think so but i might just have to
tried to strip when drunk:	dont think so
gotten seasick:	yeah
had a stalker:	YES! fuck i dont like them
played a prank on somone that had them really scared:	no...i just jump out from corners a lot
been embarassed by one of your family:	when i was younger...not anymore
felt bad about eating meat:	yeah...hence why i dont eat it that much
protested:	mhmm...almost got kicked out of school too
been to an island:	i live on an island :S
been in love:	no
ate jus because you were bored:	no
looked at something everybody thought was ugly and said "aww":	yeah
Screamed in a library:	hahaha yes
Made out with a stranger:	yeah
Been Dumped:	yup:(
Wished a part of you was different:	hasnt everyone
asked a guy to dance:	yes...*drools* damn that was hot
been asked out by a really hot guy:	nope
laughe so hard ou cried:	fuck yes...THE POWER OF CHRIST COMPLELLS YOU!!!!
went up to a complete stranger and started talking:	mhmm...many tiems
been sunburned:	fuck yes...
kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert:	no
threw up in school:	no
recieved an anonymous love letter:	yeah
had to wear something you hated:	yeah stupid wall mart vests!!
been to a luau:	in hawaii none the less :D
say your ex and wanted to kick his ass:	fuck yes
cursed in front of your parents:	all the time
been in a commerical on tv:	GG promo
watched a movie that made you miss your ex:	no
been out of the country:	to hawaii :D
been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk:	grr yes
won at pool:	once...the hit the 8 ball in :D
went to a party where you were the ony sober one:	im never sober even when i am not drinking :P
went on a diet:	nope
been lost out to sea:	no
cheated on your bf:	no
been cheated on:	no
tanned topless:	on my porch
been attacked by seagulls:	no
been searched in an airport:	no
been on a plane:	no...i walked to hawaii
been pants-ed:	people have tried
thown a shoe at someone:	yes fuck i love doing that
broke someone's heart:	i think i have :(
sung in the shower:	every day
bought something way too expensive:	nope
done something really stupid that you still laugh about:	falled on stage durring my last play at BSS...or when i said i was good with my hands..or when i got bruses on my knees from handball...i say a lot of stupid things ><
been walked in on when you were dressing:	green room...happens a lot...do i care??
ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie:	no
been kicked out of the mall:	no
ben mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back:	yes
been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one:	yeah but i never went
done something stupid when you were drunk:	WE DO NOT SPEAK OF THIS!!! ><
fell off your roof:	not my roof...but other roofs
pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone:	yes
had a deer jump in fron of your car:	mp
threated someone witha water gun:	hahaha we used to have water fights on the street
Can you....
Unwrap a starburst with your tounge:	never tried
sing:	no but i do it anyways
open your eyes underwater:	yes...i can do a hand stand:D
eat whatever you want and not have to worry:	no
ice skate:	kinda
sing in front of a crowd:	yeah
whistle:	yeah
be a bitch at times:	yes
do thirty pull ups:	no
walkin in really high heals:	haha yup
eat super spicy foods:	no
skateboard:	no
sleep with the lights on:	yes
mulititask:	mhmm
touch your nose with your tounge:	nope
fall asleep easily in the car:	no
do the cotton eye joe:	no
play ddr and not fall:	yup :D
surf:	no
fit in your locker:	no
do a split:	almost
taste the difference between pepsi and coke:	yup...dont try and fool me ^^
Take this survey Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

I FUCKING HATE BUSSES!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MOTHER FUCKER!!! this is so fucking dumb...im on the bus for like 4 hours a day cus they cut the 5:15 bus comming from mal so i have to catch another bus and transfer...which fucking sucks big time

rawar

i got my grad certificate today...kinda freaked me out...im done high school...im going into college...fuck me!! my god i no wanna grow up >< lmao...ok i totally do but fuck why does it go so fucking fast?!?! serously...being a kid was fun...but now...way to much is expected of me and it is starting to freak me out! no more certanties in my life that is for sure...from now on...nothing is certian anymore...it could all change in a min and it probably will...and i hope i am ready for it...i really really hope i dont fuck up...

i dont think i will though...i want this more then you would imagin...i want to be in this feild and i cant fucking wait for school to start...and i cant wait for life to really begin for me!!

website

im slowy rebuilding my site...

http://www.piczo.com/preppy-superstar

check it out...there are some pretty awesome pages and i am building more :D

hair dye

I AM A CONPULSIVE HAIR DYER!!! thought i would get that out in the open...i dye my hair more then i change my mood...which is a fucking lot...it has been...pink(many many times...my fav colour), purple, blue (3 different shades), pink/purple/blue, red (many times as well) black, purple black, red black, blonde, orage, bleach blonde, swamp water (as court called it...it was brown with a green tinge) , it was ever dark pink for my grad picture, half blonde half pink...and mulitply others...i change it a fucking lot...but my hair has only been bleached 4 times...not bad for all that colour hey??

i am eventually going to back to pink this year but i wanted to seem...somewhat normal...the only other time i have had my hair normal was when i had to change it to be in a play...well more then once...each time i did a different play i had to change back to normal...which is hard cus i love my outragous hair...it is waht that defines me...nobody will know what colour i will show up with next...and i love that

woah

you are all going to get annoyed with my posting...one of the reasons i stoped blogging...i do it soooo ofton :P

So heres how it works:
Open your choice of music player [iTunes, Limewire, Kazaa, ect.] and put it on shuffle. Press play. For every question type the song thats on. And when you go to a new question press the next button. No cheating. Ready?GO!

Opening credit: Skyway - CAMP!
Waking up: Only One - Lifehouse
Average day: Who I Am hates who i have been - Relient K (fucking rights)
First Date: paper thin walls - modest mouse (o.O woah dirty)
Falling in love: Hang 'em High - MCR (woot)
Fight scene: Solitare - Clay Aikenn (that is a little depressing)
Breaking up: Alive - Melissa O'neal (wow)
Getting back together: Falling From Ivory Trees - Kincaide (this is a messed up life i have here)
Secret love: Pretty Vegas - INXS
Life's okay: 44 Caliber Love Letter - alexisonfire
breakdown: Do you hear the people sing - les miserables (hahah ok)
Driving: Poetic Tragedy - The Used
Learning a lesson: I so hate consequences - relient K (that totally works)
Deep thought: My Heart Will Go On -new found glory
Flashback: boys will be boys - panic! at the disco
Partying: Someday - Nickelback (hahahaah that is funny)
Happy dance: Made of steel - OLP
Regretting: Pitiful - blindside
Long night alone: Saturday - Falloutboy
Death scene: never gone - BSB (thats right...you will never get rid of me mwhahahaha *cough* )

MOSTER!!

WOOT I FUCKING LOVE THIS STUFF!!! I TOTALLY GET WAY TO HYPER OFF IT BUT WHO CARES!?!?!?! I GET MORE HYPER OFF THIS THEN I DO DRINKING WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT?!?!? only problem is...you are not supposted to have more then two a day which is probably why i still drink cus if i could do this i would be happy...no hangovers...and those are bitch sometimes..maily cus i get them after one fucking drink most times...which really sucks all the time *grr*

wow this is about totaly bull shit but that is what this is all goign to be like for this entry....GET USED IT !!! hahaahaha you know you love me

i just bought Euro Trip and i fucking love it...the DVD is fucking awesome...they bought the pirated version of it and put it on the DVD to show the crappy quality and i am so going to to that when i make a movie...it is brilliant...and i am totally typing this all in blindness cus my comp is to slow to keep up with my typing so it comes up every few words and i am actually doing pretty well concidering i cant see what i am typing...

READ IT!

IF YOU DONT AGREE WITH THIS THEN PLEASE DO NOT POST!!!! THIS IS FOR OUR TROOPS WHO ARE DIE OVER THERE AND NEED THEIR COUNTRY TO SUPPOT THEM!!!!!!!!! THIS IS POSTED TO RAISE ATTENTION TO THOES THAT ARE DIEING!! BASH ME ALL YOU WANT! I SUPPORT THE TROOPS AND I WANT EACH AND EVERY ONE TO COME HOME SAFE!!!!

From the daughter of a Soldier..

Last week I was in Trenton, Ontario. attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest act's of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camo's, as they began heading to their gate everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red blooded Canadian who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal. Just when I thought I could not be more proud of my country or of our service men and women a young girl, not more than 6 or 7 years old, ran up to one of the male soldiers. He kneeled down and said "hi," the little girl then she asked him if he would give something to her daddy for her. The young soldier, he didn't look any older than maybe 22 himself, said he would try and what did she want to give to her daddy. Then suddenly the little girl grabbed the neck of this soldier, gave him the biggest hug she could muster and then kissed him on the cheek.

The mother of the little girl, who said her daughters name was Courtney, told the young soldier that her husband was a Corporal and had been in Afghanistan for 11 months now. As the mom was explaining how much her daughter, Courtney, missed her father, the young soldier began to tear up. When this temporarily single mom was done explaining her situation, all of the soldiers huddled together for a brief second. Then one of the other servicemen pulled out a military looking walkie-talkie. They started playing with the device and talking back and forth on it. After about 10-15 seconds of this, the young soldier walked back over to Courtney, bent down and said this to her, "I spoke to your daddy and he told me to give this to you." He then hugged this little girl that he had just met and gave her a kiss on the cheek. He finished by saying "your daddy told me to tell you that he loves you more than anything and he is coming home very soon." The mom at this point was crying almost uncontrollably and as the young soldier stood to his feet he saluted Courtney and her mom. I was standing no more than 6 feet away from this entire event unfolded. As the soldiers began to leave, heading towards their gate, people resumed their applause. As I stood there applauding and looked around, their were very few dry eyes, including my own. That young soldier in one last act of selflessness, turned around and blew a kiss to Courtney with a tear rolling down his cheek. We need to remember everyday all of our soldiers and their families and thank God for them and their sacrifices. At the end of the day, it's good to be a Canadian. Red Friday Just keeping you "in the loop" so you'll know what's going on in case this takes off.

RED FRIDAYS ----- Very soon, you will see a great many people wearing Red every Friday. The reason? Canadian who support our troops used to be called the "silent majority". We are no longer silent, and are voicing our love for God, country and home in record breaking numbers. We are not organized, boisterous or over-bearing. We get no liberal media coverage on TV, to reflect our message or our opinions. Many Canadians, like you, me and all our friends, simply want to recognize that the vast majority of Canada supports our troops.

Our idea of showing solidarity and support for our troops with dignity and respect starts this Friday -and continues each and every Friday until the troops all come home, sending a deafening message that.. Every red-blooded Canadian who supports our men and women afar will wear something red. By word of mouth, press, TV -- let's make the Canada on every Friday a sea of red much like a homecoming football game in the bleachers. If every one of us who loves this country will share this with acquaintances, co-workers, friends, and family. It will not be long before Canada is covered in RED and it will let our troops know the once "silent" majority is on their side more than ever, certainly more than the media lets on. The first thing a soldier says when asked "What can we do to make things better for you?" is...We need your support and your prayers. Let's get the word out and lead with class and dignity, by example; and wear something red every Friday.

IF YOU AGREE -- THEN SEND THIS ON..
IF YOU COULD CARE LESS THEN HIT THE DELETE BUTTON..
IT IS YOUR CHOICE.
THEIR BLOOD RUNS RED---- SO WEAR RED! ---
Lest we Forget, Lest we Forget. HAVE A GREAT DAY!

BB all stars!!

yeah im a realiy nut...I LOVE BIG BROTHER!! GO CHILL TOWN!! WOOOOOTT

blue october

I love Blue October!!!! they are not scared to have lyrics that piss people off...and they are real...all their lyrics are things that teens go through...like drug use, suicide, depression...those kinda things...freaking amazing...i totally reccomend them to anyone who has heard them before...they are not that popular...well one song is...but i dont think it is the best song of theirs...there are so many others that are better in my mind! like this one...

"Overweight"
Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recoverFor how long? (ha!)
I want to carry a piece of who I was before
So when I hit the wall, I really hit the wall
I want to tear away the death again
A whiter shade of fucking meth again
I want to stick to clues, I want to come unglued
I want to shape the world to fit the way you move
Oh, should I listen for a dress size?I owned up, I've grown up, do you remember me?
I showed up and so what if I'm the used to be
I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry I was sorry
But I'm happy that you're happy
This is no longer about me
Trade rules, switch sides for your beautiful eyes
Let him be you through your beautiful cries
Let him hold you up so you can touch affordable skies
Live your life just like a dream
Without the pain of goodbyesGoodbye!
Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?
I been a drunk disrespectful little street punk
Unlock the back of my trunk
You see, you take this bat
And bash my head into the street again
No-ones around so I keep beating it
Pull my hair back, look me in the eye
There's a self-destructive meaning in the bleeding of a guy
It's the guilt of what reality has given me
Making sense of all mistakes and my stupidity
And when you're sick you seem to think
You've failed eternallyAnd that the people you let in are only crumbling
When you're sick of thinking life in this recovery
When my decision paved the roadThat lies in front of me
So to my friends that even call but I don't call backI want you deep inside my heart upon a hill
It seems to hide sometimes and run away and wonder
I'm really sick of saying sorry but I will
Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?
But are we scared to take the ride?
Or dare to look inside?
I'm floating far away (far away)
I'm floating far away (leaving home)
I'm floating far away (so far away)
I'm floating far away
I want to learn to walk with others as an equal
I want to treat the ones who love me with respect
I want to tell the world I'll give them all a piggyback
And try to take away my negative effectI want to kiss the girl, I know I'll never lie again
I want to call my dad and tell him that I care
I want to let my brother know
He saved my life a thousand times
Throughout the years he's been my friend
Who's always there
Ever carried the weight of another?For how long?

Serously just look them up!! some other songs are amazing and their new stuff is no better then the old stuff!!

"A brief bout with a razorblade cut meI freaked out, thinking people didn't love meI watched closely as the you I knew forgot meIn letting go, I am so proud of what I've done" Razorblade - Blue October

wootness..kinda

so tonight was totally downhill...it started off a fucking blast...
we got there really early so i had to sit there WATCHING them set up all the lights and sound and i really really wanted to play...i miss doing tech soo much...i havnt touched a light board since...may 5th (yes i remember the date...and tis kinda sad) i miss being on light board...*grr* anyways...i might be getting a "job" with this sound people...it isnt really a job since i wont get payed but i cant wait anyways...it is going to be a "call when we need you thing" so i might not ever get to work with them but at least i tried and that is all that counts
the guy who was preforming was actually pretty good too...he was the "man of a thousand voices" and he was funny.. he sung songs by other artists and totally exagerating them but it was funny...few hours later we had the fireworks...and let me tell you...FUCKING AMAZING!!! way to put on an amazing show...they had hearts...in firework form...how cool is that???
but then it all goes down hill...you want to know the story ask...cus putting it in writing makes it final and im not at that point...yet...give me a few days and it will be done...finished...fuck you I better...you know that kinda thing :P
anyhoos...so tired so i am going to finish up other shit b4 i go to bed ;) laters!
*btw if you hadnt noticed...i like colour :D

wow

i am so effing tired right now...man i cant believe i stayed up till 9 this moring...fuck that is early...i swear alot when tired...tonight is going to be a long night...got the fireworks, then Emma's and the kids fest...and then i go home...so im going to be fucking tired but it is sooo going to be worth it...tonight and tomorrow are going to be a fucking blast...more then a fucking blast...the fireworks will take care of that but you know what i mean...wow so effing tired and i ramble even more when i am tired...I LOVE RENT!! just thought i would throw that in here...just cus i am listing to it right now...yeah im that cool!! wooooooot ness!!

anyhoos!
EVERYBODY COME TO THE FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it is going to fucking rock so you all better come *shake fist at*

eff!!

fuck i should not have stayed up this fucking late!!!! or early depending on how you look at it...i have not slept yet tonight cus i was talking to people on XBOX live...man i am obsessed with that fucking game...and now i am fucking tired...and i have fireworks and peoples to see :P

60's music

damn i love old music!!! classic rock!! i totally forgot how much i love it till tonight watching a 50's, 60's rock and roll tribute band...they are fucking awesome btw...they didnt fuck over anything like some tribute bands

my cat is winking at me :S tis really cute actually :P my cats are totally nuts...not just a little...but completly nuts...jumping up walls nuts...you know that cat commercial with the cat jumping 2 stories to get the cat treat...my cat could totally do that...he is also addicted to cat nip which i find really funny...he will attack and try to kill anything covered in cat nip...silly addict

so my bestest has a blog now!! (woot) totally my doing to :P but it will keep me posted on the random shit that goes on in Ballenas Theatre...which is some pretty fucking awesome stuff...and going to get more intesting cus i totally didnt train a tech for next year (blush) didnt think i was going to be leaving till after the shows were done...so i was kinda screwed...and there is really no body to do tech...at least not as much as i did...FB could do it...but he wines to much about doing it so ... i hope they find someone...but no one will replace me!! :D at least not to the extent of work i did...there are no band and drama kids anymore *** CRIES *** you guys better not kill Robson...I kept that from happening for 3 years now...you better keep up my work!! and make sure they dont plan things on the same date...cus that has totally happened even though neither will admit it! (I am counting on you Em...you better do a good job next year!!!)

wow that was total rambling...but fun rambling...

"Just Because You Eat Girl Guide Cookies DOES NOT Mean You Cannot Get STD's"
(woot tonight was fun :D )

annoying children ><

rawar...stupid job and stupid annoying children...i am so done with this job!!!!!!!! serously good money...not worth the pain and suffereing of children!!!!!!

anyways...enough of that...totally getting back into blogging...im going to be an addict again lmao...

i love old music!!! woot!!! "give me the beat boys and free my soul, i wanna get lost in the rock-and-roll" wootness!!!

Fireworks tomorrow!!! cant wait...i love fireworks!! they rocks! yes i said rocks!! fireworks go bang!!! lmao emma...fuck that was fun!! :P

shit i wish my exam results were in!! *grrrrr* still dont know if i can do one of the courses!! i hate english sometimes!! and the fucking teacher! couldnt give me a C+ even though i worked hard to get it!! no!! i totally deserved it!!

wow rambling...im totaly in a rambling mood!!

im also newly in love with Blue October...they rock...

i think i am done rambling and i have to go anyways...till later tonight!!

woops!

long time no update...sorry...got busy with school and father and friends and lots of shit...be prepaired for long entry...going to try my best to update...

totally done school...was a very hard year...it was ok in the beginning but it slowly got harder...first semester i dropped out of english cus i couldnt finish in time...so i screwed over second semester by having to do english again...and i had to do bio 11 cus you need it to grad...so i was stuck with one course that i kinda like and one that i hate...kinda screwed wasnt i?? and by second semester i was back in to drugs (completly quit now but not then) i was doing pot daily ... at school too...and i was doing anything else that was handed to me...drinking alot at school too...which ws kinda screwey cus if i had got caught...i would have got 20 days suspesion...which would have screwed me over...so i skipped a lot to...cus i was stonned or such...or didnt care...

dont get me wrong... a lot of good things happened to ..which made me miss school to...like provincials...for drama...taking jerry finnegans sister to chilliwack for the provincial festival was a blast...but then i had to go back and go right to prom...and then a party...which i got a killer hangover from and i got sick too...so i missed 4 days of school cus of it...and i missed school constantly for festivals and such...running the stage band festival and the drama festival...and going to hawaii...put me behind...by may i was failing both courses with no end in sight...i had 2 plays to put on so i was kinda screwed...i risked being kicked out of the plays...so i worked my ass off...school working and learning lines and building sets...it was crazy...but i finally got it all together...by the end of may i thought it was going to be easy sailing...but no that is never how it works is it??

RIP John Coogan The 5th...March 2nd 1988 to May 25th 2006

losing John hit everyone hard...but we had to go on...the cast of Inhert the wind...we were taking it hard...the ones who knew him...we had to go straight from the funeral to onstage...i had half and hour to get ready and go on...true test of how much i want to be in theatre....it took courage...expecailly since i was first on and had to play a little girl...a happy joyfull little girl...it was tough...this was only the third time i had ever been onstage...and the other ones didnt take that much acting...so it was tough...but i didnt it...

I finished school...done for good...no more high school...the last day at school i cried so hard...leaving behind a theatre i had worked in and helped build for 3 years was tough...my best friend was there and was going to be there for another year....

the summer didnt help much...my dad decided to seperate from my mom...after 18 years together they are done...and that is hard...

all in all...im glad this year happened...i am a different person then i was...im going to make it on my own no matter what now...

"today is the beginning of the rest of your life"