fuckin sucks

so i cant go tonight...im sick and cant drink anyways cus of my tounge...which sucks but whatever..there wil be others :D

swollen ><

so the tounge is swollen...i have a fucking lisp today...but i can still talk...and par-tay!! fuck i cant wait. got to find a ride home though lol...
still pretty sick to which effing sucks...and my shoulder is killing me...stupid tendionitis!!!!!!! oh well...tonight will make it all better....

fucking rights!!!

today was soo much fun. i got to see all my old people from BSS and...I GOT MY TOUNGE PIERCED!!!! so fucking excited!!!!!!!!!!! it is something i have wanted for a long time and now i have it!!!! and it didnt fucking hurt one bit...well maybe a little...but less then my ears which is suprising...it hurts a little now...well more just annoying...it is pretty swollen but i still love it to bits <3333

stupid script

so i have to write a script for crew 140 and it is due today...but...it is going to take me so much longer then that to write it. im doing a play about John...or rather what i went through when i lost John. and it is going to include real things that happened...including the day i found out to the funeral to visiting the tressle and the waterfall to now. with details changed...it will be exactly what happened..in stage format. the hardest thing will be opening myself up enough to write it all. i normally dont let people in when i am hurting...you may think i do...but i really keep most of it in. im working on being more open but sometimes it is hard. expecially when it is in the past. i like to keep the past in the past. that is where it is supposted to be and there it shall stay. only...mother says i shouldnt keep it all in like this. says it is bad for me. she said i should just let it all out or i will just overload one time. little does she know i already do that. it is easyer that way...keep it all in till something triggers it all and you cry and scream for 3 hours and then it is over for awhile. it never happens in public ... only when i am alone. it really is easyer that way. some people wear their heart on their sleve...which is fine as long as they arnt depressed. i cant stand when people are all emo and shit and they are always sad. it is really annoying sometimes. i have a few friends that are like that and they (for the most part) are like 12 - 14...and i just look at them and go..."what do you have to be sad about?" sure it may seem the end of the world that you and your best friend had a fight about the guy you like...but get over it. it really bothers me how people are like that. if you got something to be actually sad about then go for it...but if you got nothing...and people who compain about their parents...omg they bother me. everyones family is screwed up. hell my dad is an alcholic and a coke addict...and my mom...over protective...but you know what?? they are my family and i love them. these kids who just dont get it. they piss me off. take what you get. there are people out there with abusive familys and they are usually the ones with the smile on their face. one of my friends is always complaing about her mom...how she is over pretective and all that. but you know waht?? she doesnt want you to turn into a druggie which most of the people in pville end up doing anways. seroulsy...i need to make a t-shirt that says "i made it out of pville without a drug addiction" it would be interesting.

wow rant much...haha...im going to go now...try and write this fucking script :P

lalala

so yesterday...went ok. first time i went up i was shaking...not good lol. but the second time was good....i hate cold reads...im not good at them...but for being my first real audition it wasnt bad...wish i hadnt been sick cus i know the singing didnt go good at all. way off key and voice not good. i totally hate being sick. i hate missing school. but there was no way i could make it today...i feel horrible. good thing is i only get this sick once a year at the beginning of school so...im not doing to bad...usually i miss a week but i went all week but today..woot!!

yay!!!

i got my 7th and 8th piercing!!!! 4 in each ear now!! i only need 2 more then i will have what i have always wanted!! i need my industrial and my tounge and i will be happy...industrial will come soon but ...stupid mother wont let me get my tounge done till i am out of the house...but i am thinking about getting it done anyways...anyone wanna come?? lol


anyways...auditions tomorrow. i really want to be in it. i dont normally want to be in the show but...my old school is comming...or the grade 12 theatre kids are. i didnt really act at my old school and i really want to show them what i can do. i was always thought of as the tech...which is fine but i love acting too. dont know how i am going to do the song. i am sick and my voice sounds like crap...well it normally does...i can find a pitch but when i am sick...im lucky i can hit a note when i am sick...lemon tea here i come!!

anyhoose...i am going to go and read and then go to bed...got to get a good nights sleep!!

hard to go on

sometimes it is hard to think of anything good...i miss John very much. it was very hard today to not be around my friends at BSS...we bounded like no other the day we lost John. we became a family that day. all i wanted to do all day was see them and get hugs and fall back on them and have them fall on me. i know i am growing up and supposted to be with more grown up people now but...i miss them a lot. i got really close to them cus of losing John. when you go through a something like that you get close to people. we just understand each other. it wouldnt be like this if we didnt go through that but we did...and we are close for it. they were there for me when i needed them. when i had to go onstage after the funeral they were there. kim, nathan, twigg, and i dont remember who else just randomly showed up but they were there. and the day we all found out...i could not have gotten through that day without them. nathan and twigg dancing around like idiots trying to get all the girls to stop crying. they hid their pain to make us feel better. and a few weeks ago when i was talking to nathan he made me feel so much better...i was a little tipsy and i just started talking. we talked about John and it made me feel better. he is really an amazing person...and i thank him a lot.

wow i rambeled on quite a bit. so anyways...this is just a heads up...i will be like this tomorrow...and maybe the next day...not as bad. every month i will be like this...i cant not. it is just always on my mind...everything reminds me of him...

Miss You John...I wish with all my heart you were still here. everybody is in pain over you. they miss you soo much...i just wish you had realized how many people loved you and wanted to help.

"fighting on arrival, fighting for survival" <3333

it hate this date!

4 months John. i fucking miss you more then ever.

I dont know if anyone noticed but i was in a weird mood today...so im sorry if anyone noticed...i willbe like this tomorrow too...stupid and spacy...thank god i have friends like court, rick and emma...rick...i needed that hug today...and emma....thanks for the talk...court...i love you!! i need to see you guys soon...

got to go...more later

Love you all

Rest In Peace AJ!!

wicked

i was going through my old journal and i decided to take some of the quizes that i took last year...and most of them have tured out diferent...kinda weird but cool

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is an incubator for good ideas, it just takes a while for them to develop.But when you think of something, watch out!Your thoughts tend to be huge, and they come on quickly - like an explosion.You tend to be quiet around others, unless you're inspired by your next big idea.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Michelle Alleyne McAulay's Aliases

Your movie star name: Candy Thomas Your fashion designer name is Michelle London Your socialite name is Shorty Hawaii Your fly girl / guy name is M McA Your detective name is Cat Ballenas Your barfly name is Sunflowers Vodka Your soap opera name is Alleyne Hillview Your rock star name is Push-pop Lion Your Star Wars name is Microb McAchr Your punk rock band name is The Happy Toothbrush

The Amazing Meganame Generator

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount.You're loyal to your friends... to a point.But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You don't really value honesty.You do value getting your way, no matter what.And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!) Generosity: You value generosity a fair amount.You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"! Humility: You don't really value humility.You don't have much to be humble about!And you might as well promote yourself, because no one else will.You're a pretty special person, and you let everyone know it. Tolerance: You value tolerance highly.Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high.You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.And in return, you expect the same from who you love.Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium.You tend to be the one with more power.You aren't a total control freak in relationships..But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low.You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low.This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships..It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

The Five Variable Love Test

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness.Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism.It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

ok so i got really into it...it is scary how accurate these are

so...

anybody good at downloading??? i need someone to download these songs. the ones in bold are the ones that i want and cant get...so if someone could do that i would love them forever!!


1
Then Who Am I
6
She Loves Me The Way That I Love You
2
I Still Can't Leave Your Memory Alone
7
Mary Go Round
3
The Hard Times Will Be The Best Times
8
That Was Forever Ago
4
Completely Helpless
9
Thorns Of Life
5
Mississippi Cotton Picking Delta Town
10
Northwind

got bored

Really Long Survey (over 200)
What is your name?:	Michelle
Are you named after anyone?:	my uncles fav name
What's your screename?:	Misha
Would you name a child of yours after you?:	most likely not...they will probay have my middle name though
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:	Christopher...thats what my mom said anyways
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:	i love my name
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:	people ALWAYS spell my last name wrong...no one can spell it right
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:	no
Basics
Your gender::	girl
Straight/Gay/Bi::	dont believe in the labels...depends on the person really
Single?:	yup
If not, do you want to be?:	sure lol
Birthdate::	Aug 4th 1988!!!
Your age::	18
Age you act::	depends on who i am with..i can act from 12 to 25
Age you wish you were::	19..i could go bar hoping :P
Your height::	5'6"
Eye color::	green/blue
Happy with it?:	fucking love my eyes
Hair color::	pink and green
Happy with it?:	umm yeah...it is "watermelion" hair lol
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::	ambidextrous...cant write with my left hand though...working on it.
Your living arrangement::	at home
Your family::	seperated...i live with my mom...my dad lives in alberta
Have any pets?:	yesum...3 cats one dog and my brother :P
Whats your job?:	currently unemployed
Piercings?:	3 in each ear
Tattoos?:	this christmas!!
Obsessions?:	theatre!!!
Addictions?:	Theatre??
Do you speak another language?:	nope
Have a favorite quote?:	changes daily
Do you have a webpage?:	yessum www.piczo.com/preppy-superstar
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:	most of the time yes i do
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:	for the most part
Do you have any secrets?:	well..not really...people can ask them and i will tell them
Do you hate yourself?:	no..i love me <33>
Do you like your handwriting?:	when i actually try i do...but i get lazy a lot
Do you have any bad habits?:	smoking ><>
What is the compliment you get from most people?:	either about my hair or my eyes
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:	writers block
What's your biggest fear?:	being alone
Can you sing?:	i try
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:	not anymore...i am me
Are you a loner?:	sometimes...i get pissed off with people sometimes and i just want to be me
What are your #1 priorities in life?:	friends and theatre
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:	i think so
Are you a daredevil?:	a little yes
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:	when i get depressed i shut off and that scares me a lot
Are you passive or agressive?:	agressive most of the time
Do you have a journal?:	many
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:	actually my strength is my weakness depending on the situation...it is my drive and subborness
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:	be more confident on the inside
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:	for my age i am
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:	no what i have done makes me who i am
Do you think life has been good so far?:	yeah...it could have been much worse
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:	never give up
What do you like the most about your body?:	my eyes
And least?:	take a guess
Do you think you are good looking?:	no i honestly dont
Are you confident?:	on the outside i apear that way but i not really
What is the fictional character you are most like?:	i dont know
Are you perceived wrongly?:	i think i am most of the time...expecialy when people first meet me
Do You...
Smoke?:	yes
Do drugs?:	pot
Read the newspaper?:	mhmm
Pray?:	sometimes
Go to church?:	not anymore
Talk to strangers who IM you?:	depends on my mood
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	i have them but they always get pushed off my bed when i am sleeping so i dont bother anymore
Take walks in the rain?:	one of my fav things to do
Talk to people even though you hate them?:	depends on the person but most of the time i do
Drive?:	no :(
Like to drive fast?:	no
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:	not really
Hurt yourself?:	yes
Been out of the country?:	once
Eaten something that made other people sick?:	not that i know of
Been in love?:	no
Done drugs?:	yes
Gone skinny dipping?:	yes
Had a medical emergency?:	no
Had surgery?:	no
Ran away from home?:	i got to my car
Played strip poker?:	yes
Gotten beaten up?:	yes
Beaten someone up?:	no
Been picked on?:	yes who hasnt
Been on stage?:	no never...haha yes a few times
Slept outdoors?:	yes
Thought about suicide?:	yes
Pulled an all nighter?:	many
If yes, what is your record?:	52 hours awake
Gone one day without food?:	yes
Talked on the phone all night?:	yes
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:	i think so..
Slept all day?:	yes
Killed someone?:	no
Made out with a stranger?:	yes
Had sex with a stranger?:	yes
Thought you're going crazy?:	many times
Kissed the same sex?:	mhmm
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:	no
Been betrayed?:	yes
Had a dream that came true?:	yes
Broken the law?:	yes
Met a famous person?:	yes
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:	no
On purpose?:	no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:	yes
Stolen anything?:	yes
Been on radio/tv?:	yes
Been in a mosh-pit?:	yes
Had a nervous breakdown?:	yes
Bungee jumped?:	no..i want to
Had a dream that kept coming back?:	yes
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:	yes
Miracles?:	yes
Astrology?:	yes
Magic?:	yes
God?:	yes
Satan?:	yes
Santa?:	yes
Ghosts?:	yes!!!
Luck?:	yes
Love at first sight?:	yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:	yes
Witches?:	yes
Easter bunny?:	yes
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:	yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:	yes...but it is always on the other side of the rainbow
Do you wish on stars?:	yes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:	yes
Do you think God has a gender?:	yes
Do you believe in organized religion?:	no
Where do you think we go when we die?:	heaven or hell
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:	yes
Who is your best friend?:	Emma-leigh
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:	Emma-leigh
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:	live you life to the fullest
Your favourite inside joke?:	the cheeze defeats me evertime!!!!
Thing you're picked on most about?:	the way i look
Who's your longest known friend?:	Curt
Newest?:	well the drama people
Shyest?:	i dont think i have one of those
Funniest?:	Mandy
Sweetest?:	ummm.,..dont think i have one of these either
Closest?:	Emma-leigh
Weirdest?:	Mandy
Smartest?:	Anne
Ditziest?:	little britteny
Friends you miss being close to the most?:	Tori
Last person you talked to online?:	Gibby
Who do you talk to most online?:	Chris
Who are you on the phone with most?:	Emma-leigh or Nikki
Who do you trust most?:	Emma-leigh
Who listens to your problems?:	Chris
Who do you fight most with?:	Emma-leigh
Who's the nicest?:	Heather
Who's the most outgoing?:	umm i hang out with THEATRE kids...hard to choose
Who's the best singer?:	Court
Who's on your shit-list?:	huh??
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:	i have hot friends so yes
Who's your second family?:	Emma-leigh
Do you always feel understood?:	no
Who's the loudest friend?:	hahahah again THEATRE KIDS!!
Do you trust others easily?:	yes
Who's house were you last at?:	AKA
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::	Eric, Emma-leigh, Chris
Do your friends know you?:	i believe they do
Friend that lives farthest away::	Joel
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:	no
What do you find romantic?:	candels
Turn-on?:	no!! ...ok..touch..you figure out wher ;)
Turn-off?:	hair...like back/chest hair
First kiss?:	i was young and dont remember
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:	umm...dont know
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:	dont really matter...i love meeting people
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:	i do it anyways...i dont care about society
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:	yes...my heart dont care what people look like
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:	no
What is best about the opposite sex?:	hugs and kisses...they are always better
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	they dont say what they mean
What's the last present someone gave you?:	ummm...i have never got a gift not from a family member for years
Are you in love?:	no
Do you consider your significant other hot?:	no
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:	haunter???
You wanted to kill?:	ummm i cant remember their name
That you laughed at?:	ryan...it was funny that he was in pain...so im crule
That laughed at you?:	Nabil is always laughing at me...but i think it was BJ
That turned you on?:	no comment
You went shopping with?:	my mom
That broke your heart?:	he knows
To disappoint you?:	see above
To ask you out?:	in like grade 6
To make you cry?:	David...stupid fucker
To brighten up your day?:	Gibby cus he came to see me yesterday :D
That you thought about?:	*blush* NO ONE!
You saw a movie with?:	Emma-leigh and Brittelz
You talked to on the phone?:	Emma-leigh i think
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:	Gibby
You saw?:	Gibby
You lost?:	John...rip <33>
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:	i wish..mother is being annoying
Will it be with your significant other?:	no
Or some random person?:	friends bday if i can go
What are you wearing right now?:	tshirt and shorts
Body part you're touching right now::	my legs are crossed
What are you worried about right now?:	i am always worrying
What book are you reading?:	just finished one of the teen books...i was bored
What's on your mousepad?:	dont have one...on a laptop :P
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::	Tired, Excited, Happy, bored, waiting
Are you bored?:	haha a little
Are you tired?:	yes
Are you talking to anyone online?:	no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:	no
Are you lonely or content?:	a little between both
Are you listening to music?:	yes
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bubbles

rawar...not fair once again. i need to stay away from my old friends...not good...i saw one of my friends that i thought i was over ...haha NO WAY! yeah totally not...still care for him...he is such a sweetie and he came out just to see me tonight...*sigh* he is always there for me...and i have really missed him (Em i know you are dying to know who it is...heres a clue...he dated the whore and i was going to steal him from her...and he cant dance :P ok i totally just gave it away...tell anyone and i will kill thee) it is just like no matter what i cant get over some people...and i really want to...hell im in college and there are so many other people but i cant get over these people (you know the other one Em..btw need to talk to you about that...Michelle might have broken them up...by accident...me and my big mouth...he isnt talking to me again :( ) this is a total rambling post...that is my mood again. i went out tonight as i said...and...as i said before...i really am happy. Losing John did something to me. i grew up within a few months. i had some really rough spots but i am who i am cus of that. which really sucks cus it shouldnt have happened but i wouldnt be this if it wernt. it really isnt fair. monday will be 4 months...wow i cant believe it relaly. i miss him terribly...it wasnt that i was close to him cus that would be a lie. but he was a certian in my life. see i get these attachments to people and i didnt realize he was one of them but he was. i need to write the play. for one of my classes i am going to write something not really for him but for myself really. the day after he died...the day i found out was total hell and i can still remember it all. it is one of those moments i will never forget. remembering it now though is like watching a film. i can see myself in all the scenes but i remember how i was feeling. basically that is going to be my story. the day i found out and the days that followed. like how that night i freaked out like no other and actually had to leave me house cus i couldnt be there. (i was in a state that night...he was my neighbor and his fav spot to go was my backyard basically and that just freaked me out) and how i went to errington...another one of his fav spots. i remember the funeral...and breaking down. my mom spoke at his funeral. she talked about when we first met him and talked about where he was from and made fun of him cus of him calling notch hill a mountian...and i remember having to do a show 30 mins after going to the funeral. i dont know what i would have done without that show to keep me busy. we went into show the tuesday after he died...he died on a thursday (may 25) and we started tues...the funeral was thursday...that was the single hardest thing i have ever had to do. i had to be a little girl and jump around the stage and be happy and that was the opposite to what i was feeling. i wanted to curl in a ball and stay there. i couldnt stop crying. i did the whole show...but i did lose it once...there was a scene where i was supposted to be a little bit sad but i cried. luckly it was intermission so i got to redeam myself and then back on...but when i finished i bawled all the way home. i think i am going to go and write now. i seem to be in the mood.

life

when did i change??? i went back to my old high school yesterday and ...it was diferent...i felt different...i was happy...i'm never happy....even when i was happy last year i wasnt really happy...it is hard to describe. maybe i never wanted to be really happy last year?? i dunno..but i wasnt. something was always wrong in my life but it now seems trivial. it is amazing how fast this change happened...it was just like here. in some ways i am more like the kid i used to be before whalebone theatre and others are new devolpments.


anyways... will type more later when i take of these god damned fake nails..they are impossible to type in lol

tired

fucking hell....i should not have stayed up so late last night../not a good idea...sims was so tempting though....and then playing with my kittens with sticky bubbles (so fucking funny i might add) and now i have to walk in this crap weather and i dont know where my umbrella is so fuck...im going to get sicker

blarg

yeah i dont even know...today has been...well not a good day...i started out this morning by wakeing up late...so fucking tired...last night was a blast though and sooo worth it...but i, like always went and checked my phone...and there was this message...from someone...with a really not nice message...and anyone who talked to me in the morning would have seen me shaking...i was pissed...but turnes out...it was someone else and i am glad that got cleared up...cus i was flipping (thank you emma leigh,...once again you come through for me *hugs* ) so even though it wasnt who it said it was...it wasnt a nice this and it pissed me off...and once i am pissed off it takes me a bit to calm down...so most of today i was trying to not snap at people...but it did get better ...got to talk to people and calmed down quite a bit...but ...i dunno...i feel so left out with the theatre people,..and it is nothing they are doing it is just me...i cant let go of high school...i really want to...but i miss it...and i know i complain about this lots and it is going to get annoying...(if it isnt already) but this is who i am...and i want...i dont even know what i want anymore...i just want to be me...i want to let people know who i am...

i love Emma

fuck i love her...i just called her to tell her what i did on sat at the party and i can hear her kinda mulling it over untill i repeat it again and i hear WHAT????? and then we start laughing it was brilliant....

lol

so i dont know how i am getting to school today...i cant believe i slept in...i slept till 11:30 but i went to bed at 6 PM yesterday...talk about a lot of sleep...and i totally wish i could remember sat night...i really dont remember most things...which is very bad...i wasnt supposted to get this drunk again ><>

so...last night...

well i really dont remember much...it is really fuzzy and i am missing about 4 hours....i remember up untill i slammed back a cooler and it comes back when i woke up and moved off the couch...everything else is very fuzzy ><>

lalalalala

so im efffing tired today....fuck i dont know how i am going to make it and not be the first to pass out tonight...

anyways...last night was a fucking blast...we had the dance and it was fun to be back in with my old crew and be whores...i didnt think i could be corrupted more but some how you guys did it...i grabbed Matts ass last night...something i would not have done last week lmao...he has a nice ass :P um...what else...not much...it was just soooo much fun to see my school people..i had people do double takes like "wtf are you doing here?" (in a good way though) hahah it was good fun. and they played black betty and i did the guitar solo!! (just for you em ;) ) twas really fun..then i had tori come back to my house and we talked...i missed her soooo much...she hasnt been here in months (neither have you emma but you will come tonight or i will kill you) lol no i wont but you better come!!!!! and so tonight is the par-tay...wootness times a million!!!!

intence week!!

this week and a bit since school started has been nuts!! it is worse then last year...i hardly see my family...my sister is usually in bed by the time i get home and leaves b4 i get up...so i dont see her...i havnt seen any of my high school friends even thought i have planned to go in two weels in a row (promise i will make it next week guys) it is just more then i am used to...i cant even believe my mom is letting me go out this much...with people she doesnt know...last year it would have been a no right away. right em?? she did that a lot eh? but this year?? fuck sat will be my 3rd time drinking in 2 weeks...that is a lot for me...but i cant effing wait!! wooooot!

what happens..??

when my mother leaves me no smokes and i wake up having a nic-fit??? we,ll i have junk food..serously like hangover food but tastes not so good...pizza, ice cream, coke, gummy worms...oh yeah

woah!!

i soooo tired right now ><>

but anyways...time to go do stuff...byez

woot today!

so today was pretty fucking fun!! i fucking love theatre people!!! like i really really really do! it is only a week since i met some of these people and i am getting so close to some of them. like Devin...me and him are tight!!! we are telling each other secrets and everything!! and i pretty much already trust these people with my fucking life!! Emma i still miss you like fuck...you made me cry again baby!! leaving me that message!!! boy we need to be together!!1 i have so many things to tell you that i want to keep off the net (lol mind out of gutter..I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING!!!) MIKE JUST WON BIG BROTHER 7 WOOOOOOOOOOOOTT FUCKING RIGHTS!!!!!!!!

haha anyways!!! i totally love people..theatre people...this is really the only point to this post...i thought we bonded in my old theatre but...this is beyond anything (cept emma...we have something special) but man...in BSS i always had doubts with most people...like who is talking behind my back.,..i do get that here..but it isnt as bad....maybe it is cus i am not in far enough yet but i dont think it will get as bad. like we were really horrible to each other some times...stress in there was just like intence. anyways...i am going to go now...i am being taken in by TV

hopeless

i hake liking someone...it really really pisses me off...it really is my one pet peeve and i cant fix it...you know the fucking feeling...when you cant breath thinking about them?? or the stupid bubbles you get?? fuck fuck fuck!!!! i really no like it...like why couldnt this all be really easy??? if feeling were mutual and all that shit??? why cant that happen in real life??? im 18 and really havnt had a relationship (i had one but i am really trying to forget it happened...it was that bad, so bad i have no dated since...which is sad cus we ended in grade 8...yes Michelle has not had a boyfriend since she was 14) so it kinda sucks...and im still like a high school kid...my mind is still set that way and it is going to be hard to change (by high school i mean like that stupid little girl thing ><>

fucking intence

fucking drugs!!!! i fucking hate them so fucking much (not pot...if you know me i dont mind pot but anything harder then that i fucking hate it) i already lost two fucking people to drugs and i almost lost another. my uncle died of a speed ball when i was 2 weeks old...just after his 31st bday...im named after him too (his fav song was Michelle by the beatles and it was also his fav name) losing him changed my entire life...after that i fucking lost everyone...his parents (my grandparents) just basically gave up living after that...lost them when i was 6 within a week of each other (my grandpa died on the day of my grandma's funeral) and then there is John...who didnt really die from drugs...but i really belive he wouldnt have done what he did if not for the huge amount of drugs in his system. and NOW my friend David...who is one of my really good friends (or was untill he moved) tells me he is in the hospital cus he OD'd...he has been there for 3 fucking days...and fuck...i knew it was going to happen but it just didnt really click till now...i could have lost him too...just as everything was going good i could have lost another friend...i mean fuck kids...stop being dumb...he is still telling me he aint going to stop....HE ALMOST FUCKING DIED AND HE WONT FUCKING QUIT!!! it makes me fucking rage cus he is being soooo stupid....i know it is way beyond my control but learn fast what i am like...i care far to easy...it is how i have always been...i attach to people to fast...i could meet someone and know them for one day and already be ready to tell them everything...which is really weird...cus i am terrifyed of being hurt...yet i let people in so fast...i have no secrets...if you want to know something ask..and i will tell you...not matter what it is...im right now debating telling everything...cus i really dont feel honest if i keep this all in...im probably not what people think i am...im totally different on the inside...and i think it is time i took off the mask...

well this isnt easy for me to say...but i want it out so people dont think i am someone im not...cus it took me a long time to be able to tell people stuff and i am already kinda hiding things..so here they are...

i was a drug user...i was a cutting...i was suicidal...i say was cus i really am not anymore...i have my moments...but i am doing really good...

last time i had anything other then pot was ... quite awhile ago...grade 9 i think was the last time (cept for one mushroom a few months ago...which almost started me again) i was really bad for about 2 years and quite a partyer b4 that... now think about how old i am..then think about the fact that i was clean from grade 9 on...now think about how many years i was addicted that puts me starting drugs at 12 summer between grade 6 and 7...not proud of that at all

last time i cut was april ... now i think i have already lied about this...the scars on my arm are not from falling while drunk...which i think i have told some people...it is a lie...i dont like to admit that i did that myself. but i did..i was drunk but i didnt fall..i did it myself when i was in the car home...i dont like admitting that i did that to myself...it is horrible really...i wish i didnt do it at all

and the last time i was suicidal was acutally not to long ago...i get random moods where i just dont want to be here...and they get pretty bad...when i feel like i have no one (which is every other weekend ><) i get like that. i have scars on my wrists and all that...i was a pill popper...i would take advil or something for no reason other then i wanted to stop feeling. i wouldnt even be here if it were not for Emma-leigh...i had the bottle and was ready to take them but i saw a picture of emma and i just couldnt...i couldnt leave her behind...thats when we made up the "you jump i jump" thing between us...she isnt allowed to leave me and i aint allowed to leave her...


i trust and care way to much...i cant help it...i used to fuck around too...around the same time i was doing all the drugs...i dont even remember the name of the first guy i slept with...

so that is me...i try not to do any of that anymore...i really relaly really try...it fucked up my life...and i did everything i could to get out of it...so i ask you now...cus i had this thing with all my high school friends...if i am ever into that stuff again (cutting and drugs and shit) please HIT ME!!!! i dont want to be that person anymore...

well there you go guys...i want you all to know this...so those who read it please pass it on...i want this out there b4 ..well anything...i want this to be known as me...i want people to know of my past and i want people to see why i am like i am about somethings...thats all...i will see everyone on monday

wootness!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fucking love this laptop!!!!!!!!!! i love having the net in my room!!! today has been a totally awesome day...i fucking cant even wait till school...this may sound weird but i fucking love school!!! (yes Emma school can be fun :P )

i was talking to nikki yesterday and we started talking about John...i really cant get him off my mind... it is really starting to get annoying...this month has been the hardest so far...when i was sad i would cry and it was that simple...but now...i cant seem to cry...unless in public...wow can you say drama queen???

i just want to think of something else for once :(

laptop!!!!

woot woot woot woot!!!!! i love student loans!!!!!! i got a laptop and an ipod nano!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot!!! it is a lovely feeling spending my own money...i never ever got something this new before...always got second hand stuff or we won stuff or people bought it for me (hence why i am not very careful with others things :S) but now i am...these are mine...and i will take good care of them :D

woah tired much?

so im pretty fucking tired right now but i am going to up date a little anyways...we had the garage sale today...mom got me up at fucking 9 in the morning...did that all day...went to the BBQ at Kylan's ...had a fucking blast there...saw "shes the man" totally funny movie...hung out with theatres some more...got a ride home at 1:30 and here we are...going to bed now :P

Mixer

so tonight was a fucking blast...didnt think i could love theatre people more...but i do now...

and you people should feel hournered...i dont get that drunk with people i dont know...feel proud :P im a complete idiot when i am a little tipsy and well..*cough* i was a little beyond that last night wasnt i?? haha you guys got to see me...100% me and no mask or nothing...wow...3 days know you people and i am already un-masked...that is a record...anyways..the mixer

i dont even know where to begin...there was so much that happened..and i didnt talk to anybody on my phone...which means i wasnt bored last night...which is also a first...k so lets start at the beginning (Emma-Leigh this is for you...everybody else kinda knows it all :P...PS babe...WE NEED TO TALK LMAO!!!)

so i did get to go home b4 the mixer last night which was really nice....i got to get into my costume...which totally rocked...got picked up by Nikki (totally fucking awesome) and we were so hyper on the way there (go dear whisles!!! lol) we got there and these two people were getting into the car beside us...and they wouldnt stop stairing...so i just stared laughing...then we went to the theatre...mingled for a bit...then did the name tag thing...which consisted of the second years making up name tags with quotes on them...and the first years had to make up what their represented...mine was rather easy cus i have an inside joke for it (I EAT BABIES!! do you remember Em???) anyways...story behind that is my bday party last year...we were really hypers on pop...i think we had something like 40ish pops for each of us...this was b4 we were drinkers really...but yeah...it was like 4 in the morning and we were playing board games and we got to life...you know the little people...and i belive it was Emma who had like the wrong number of children...she wanted like 2 boys and one girl...and so game went on...finally she got so many kids that she had 2 cars...so i picked one up and chewed on it and said "you're all good now...I eat babies" (oh man that was a fun bday...hey Mandy...would you tell your partner how many people you have slept with?" "only if it was a high number!!") anyways...moving on,...after that we played adam one...which is a very harsh game (FYI emma...i am totally bringing this game into GG camp lmao) i dont think i had any vodka by this point either...i was still totally sober... :S ummmm...oh yeah...the we had some fun (im not going to say cus Emma will be a first year next year!! hahah have fun babe :P ) ahaha after that we went to Alex's which was fucking awesome...this is where it gets a little fuzzy...i remember getting there...playing corners with Bif and Brad on the way there...fyi guys i have fucking bruises on my arms kthax after that i kinda just mingled with everyone...didnt stay in one place long...i remember taking off my over shirt to reveal well...lol...you know...and then people became much like my old party people...everybody touch Michelle's boobs..go on...everyone has...naxt major thing i remember is chuging a beer to prove myself...i failed...but only by one sip...and i had the fucking bottle...but almost...sooooo close....i think at this point i still had my vodka left too (yes i know emma...michelle having alchol left?? scary thought...keep reading) i remember drinking it...i think it was after the beer...but i dunno... anyways...me and jill at some point finished it...then i knew i was fucked...i could bairly stand...i was more swaying...so i leaned on people...i cant even remember who...but Ryan has now been removed from leaning post duties...he sucks and isnt hot...haha shallow much?? :P umm...i think that is it for what i remeber...cept crashing on the floor...i didnt even realize it was the floor till i woke up...then it hurt a little...or my neck did lol...

so that is pretty much it for the party...i have probably left out a lot...but that is what i can remember right now...today was total hell...riding a bus with a hangover is not fucking fun...stupid bus schedual!!!!! but yeah...i made it up to the SOS tonight and hanging out with those people is soo annoying now...they really piss me off :P

haha signing out for now!!

oh jeeze

gots myself another hangover ><>

anyways...heres a quick thingy...

My cloths smell like beer (anyone who wants to know...ask around :P) my neck has a totally kink in it...hmmm wonder why?? and i have the killer hangover from hell...but i did find out Subway is a really fun hangover food!!

update about partay laters!!!

wootness!!!

i think i am in love <33333333333

i love school...i really do.

today has been such a crazy day...i honestly didnt think it would be this crazy today...yesterday was supposted to be crazy...not today

started off normal...got up got ready...went to go lock the door...woops no..the place where the was is locked...so i called mom...she came home...nope no key to that door...so Michelle the locksmith prys the door open...mom drives me into woodgrove cus i missed my connection...so i went to the mall..got a house key!!!!! my first house key!!woot!! met with some people i hadnt seem in weeks! got on bus...went to school...saw someone i hadnt seen in 4 months who was like oober cool person who i used to work with. then went to the theatre...started talking to emma through text...got her to call me...I GOT TO TALK TO BJ!!! WOOOT!! and for you who dont know...BJ was my old director..who is more like family...he had a major blood clot and was in the hospital and i was sooo worried about him...but guess the first thing out of his mouth "Hi Michelle, I Miss You Where Is The Booth Key??" how the fuck do i know?!?! lol...he is going to go insane without me and court...we kept him sane...but it was nice to talk to him...plus Emma put me on speaker so i got to talk to other people who i miss soooo much...my old family :P and i got to listen into the "grade 12" speech...whcih i have heard twice b4 cus i took acting 12 twice...so that was killer...but she had to go and so did i...so she went to math i belive and i went to acting...and let me tell you...i fucking love acting... it rocks...after that we had a break and went to english...and i think i am going to have trouble paying attention in that class...sooo boring...i hate english...but meh..I WILL SURVIVE! after that i went to the bus stop...saw yet another person from my old school...fuck Josh makes like 34 people that i know at the school...not including the theatre people...so we talked for a bit...ran into a theatre..Alex and we talked...decided not to wait for the stupid bus and we walked to the transfer place...yes we walked from Mal to the cop shop in like 25 mins...we get on the bus just as it was going to leave...talk about timing...so i take the bus to woodgrove...miss the connection...mother picks me up...and now i am home,...and really tired :P...and for a final note...I CANT FUCKING WAIT TILL THE MIXER TOMORROW!! lmao woot!!

70 Questions to End the Summer
1. Are you in a relationship? i dont want to be...SINGLE LIFE FOR ME!!! i hate commitment
2. Do you hate more than 3 ppl? i do not think so...i dont hate many
3. How many houses have you lived in? 4
4. What is your favorite candy bar? Twix
5. What are your favorite shoes? these pink boots that i am wearing tomorrow...totally awesome
6. Have you ever tripped someone? haha yeah
8. What was your favorite summer trip this year? i didnt do anything...so probably...the camping trip
9. Do you own a Britney Spears CD? i so would
10. Have you ever thrown up in public? when i was 7 and i had to many pringles
11. Name someone that's ALWAYS on your mind? ummmm...John
12. What is your favorite music genre? i love all music
13. What is your sign? leo baby...power signs!!
14. What time were you born? 6:02 pm
15. Do you like beer? only some...
16. Have you ever made a prank call? "excuse me sir...do you have really small condoms?" OMFG (totally sober for that too....this was b4 the drinking happened :P
17. What is the most embarrassing CD you own? i love all my cds...but probably the Aaron Cater one :P
18. Are you sarcastic? Nope never...ok ok...a lot
19. What is your favorite color? pink
20. How many watches do you own?one
21. Summer or Winter? Summer
22. Spring or fall? Fall
23. What is your favorite color to wear? bright colours
24. Pepsi or Sprite? Pepsi
25. What color is your cell phone? blue and silver
26. Where's your second home? Emma-leighs...my old theatre
27. Have you ever slapped someone? no...backhanded yes
28. Have you ever had a cavity? Yes
29. How many lamps are in your bedroom ? One
30. How many video games do you own? a lot *not atticted to video games*
31. What was your first pet? my benji dog <33333
32. Have you ever had braces? Nope
33. Do looks matter? i dont want them to but they most of the time do
[note the lack of 34 and 35! ]
36. American Eagle or Abercrombie?no
37. Are you considered gangster ? damn rights i am gangster *BOW DOWN!!*
38. How many children do you want? *shrugs* let me get through school first
39. Do you own something from Hot Topic? nope
40. What is your favorite breakfast? perogies or pizza
41. Do you own a gun? a water gun...i hate guns..never touched one and never want to
42. What was the last thing you ate? dunno
43. When was the last time you cried? umm...2 nights ago...was thinking of John ><
44. What did you do last night? slept
45. When was the last time you went to Olive Garden? Never
46. Have you ever called your teacher mom? Nope
48. What are your nicknames? Misha or M
49. Do you know anyone named Bertha? yes and i no like her
50. Have you ever been to Kentucky? nope
51. Do you own something from Banana Republic? no
52. Are you thinking about somebody right now?nikki...cus i am talking to her
53. Have you ever called someone Boo? no
54. Do you smoke?Yes
55. Do you own a diamond ring? yes
56. Are you happy with your life right now? YES!!
57. Do you dye your hair?no i was born with pink hair
58. Does anyone like you? not that i know of
59. Who's your best friend(s)?Emma
60. What were you doing May of 1994? finishing my last year in van
61. Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD? all of them
62. Mc Donalds or Wendy's? McD
63. Do you like yourself? yeah i love me
64. Are you closer to your mother or father? Mom
65. Favorite feature(s) of the opposite sex? eyes
66. Are you afraid of the dark? no
67. Have you ever eaten paste? no
68. Do you have a webcam?Yes
69. Have you ever stripped? we dont talk of those
70. What are you looking forward to the most this week? MIXER!!!

TECH WITHDRAWL!!

i have to wait soooo long b4 i get to do tech...my first show isnt till like christmas...hopefully...if court can pull some strings and get me into ECHO...i have not played with lights since May 5th...yes i know the date...that is how sad it is getting (also cus it was the day b4 my prom...so i kinda remember...OMG i have not touched any boards since b4 prom o.O)

anyways...i should be in bed...but im not cus i no wanna...wow acting like a kid again...good for a college student...lmao

WOOT CHRIS IS TALKING AGAIN!!! this not akward like they were!!! wootness!! arguing about relationships again...we always do this...and we always dissagree...well with each other haha Ive missed him

lalalalala im trying to prolong sleep...i dont want to...well i do but i dont...damnit mind figure out what you wanna do!!!

ok mind made up...sleep time...Nighty

woot!!

ok so i was freaking for nothing...today was more then a blast...i love the people..i love the teachers...and i cant fucking wait to get going...although...i dont know how you are going to keep me out of that lighting booth till next year...good luck with that one guys...so im pretty damn stoked for the year to start underway and i cant wait to do a show!!!

this was interesting

It's All About Your Top Friends!
First of all, let's find out about you.
((Name)):	Michelle
((Age)):	18
((Gender)):	Girl
((Hair)):	Pink
((Eyes)):	Green
Ok, enough of that. Onto your friends.
((One)):	Emma Leigh
((Two)):	Mandy
((Three)):	Courteney
((Four)):	Tori
((Five)):	Nikki
((Six)):	Chris
((Seven)):	David
((Eight)):	Amanda
Number One
((How old are they?)):	17
((Do they live near you?)):	no :(
((Any pets?)):	10 cats one dog
((Have you ever skipped school with them?)):	never
((Are they your absolute best friend ever?)):	mhmm
((Or maybe you're dating.)):	no
((Ever been to a concert with them?)):	no
((Best present you've gotten them?)):	the girl guide icon...oh man
((What's an inside joke of yours?)):	there is not enough space...but lets just say...The Cheeze Defeats Me Every Time
((Are they the only person who understands you?)):	pretty much
((Describe them in one word.)):	insane
((Do you comment this person a lot?)):	yeah
((How often do you hang out?)):	as much as we can
((Is this person funny?)):	yes
Number Two
((How old are they?)):	15
((Male or female?)):	female
((Have you met their family?)):	yeah many times...they are my family
((Do they hug you a lot?)):	yes
((How often do you see them?)):	not enough
((Ever seen a movie together?)):	a few
((Do you know their deepest, darkest secret?)):	no
((Will you invite them to your wedding?)):	yes...will be in the wedding
((Have you ever had a crush on this person?)):	cant say that i have
((Has this person ever had a crush on you?)):	no
((Your favorite memory with them.)):	confession
((If they ran away, would you let them stay at your house?)):	yes
((Why is this person number two and not number one?)):	cus i love her sister more :P
((Do you love them?)):	yes
Number Three
((Age?)):	18
((Gender?)):	female
((How long have you known them?)):	since grade 9
((Do they like polka dots?)):	i dont think so
((What about squirrels? Do they like squirrels?)):	they do now
((Their favorite store?)):	dunno
((Is this person single or taken?)):	last i looked taken but who knows
((If taken, by who?)):	dunnno
((Are they for or against gay marriage?)):	for
((Do they believe in ghosts?)):	i think so
((Do they find Spongebob funny or annoying?)):	annoying i think
((Are they online a lot?)):	yea
((Do they dye their hair?)):	not as much as me (then again who does :P )
((Ever stayed up ALL night with this person?)):	at her house but i dont think with her
Number Four
((Age?)):	16
((What is this person's favorite color?)):	blue i think
((Would they rather go to Six Flags or the mall?)):	mall i think
((Are they a generally happy person?)):	yes
((Who is their best friend?)):	ashley
((How long have you known them?)):	well offically this year but actually since grade 2
((Where did you meet?)):	school
((Have you ever considered them your best friend?)):	no
((Are they a funny person?)):	yes
((What kind of movies do they like?)):	shrugs
((Can you see them moshing at a concert?)):	yes
((Are they double jointed?)):	not that i know of
((Have you ever physically fought with them?)):	no
((Is this person very sarcastic?)):	not really
Number Five
((Age?)):	16
((Siblings?)):	one
((Does this person have any strange pets?)):	no
((Has this person ever told you they love you?)):	yes
((Are they in a relationship right now?)):	not that i know of but who knows
((Are they openminded?)):	yeah
((A neat freak?)):	no
((Do they like rock music?)):	yeah
((Country?)):	yeah
((Rap?)):	i think so
((Do you see them often?)):	no
((Do you ever just plain hate them?)):	yeah a few tiems but we dont speak of those
((Are they a good dancer?)):	sure
((If they called you at 3 am, would you listen to their problems?)):	yeah
Number Six
((Age?)):	17
((Have you met their parents?)):	no
((Do you get along with their siblings?)):	never met them
((Do they drink a lot?)):	no
((Smoke a lot?)):	no
((Like crappy music?)):	no
((Do you hang out a lot?)):	no :(
((Do they like to take pictures?)):	dont think so
((Are they photogenic?)):	no
((Single or taken?)):	i dont know
((Have they ever been your best friend?)):	yes
((Have you ever dated?)):	no
((Who would they love to meet?)):	ummmm...dunno
((Do they tell you everything?)):	no
Number Seven
((Age?)):	17
((Do they look like any celebrities?)):	no
((Hair color?)):	bald i think...havnt seen him in awhile
((Would you lie with them and just forget the world?)):	i have
((How did you meet?)):	school
((Do they comment you a lot?)):	not anymore
((Do you comment them a lot?)):	i try not to
((Do you love them?)):	yes
((Would you invite them to your wedding?)):	if he lives that long
((Who are they going out with?)):	some chick
((Do you wish you lived with them?)):	i wish he lived somewhere
((Could you live with them?)):	no
((Have you even met them?)):	yes
((Do you have their phone number?)):	no
Number Eight
((Age?)):	19
((Are you related?)):	no
((Have you ever dated?)):	no
((Have you ever seen a movie together?)):	i dont know...i think we have
((Have they been to your house?)):	yeah
((How long have you known each other?)):	long time
((Where did you meet?)):	Girl Guides or school...i cant remember
((Have you ever slept in the same room?)):	in the same tent ;)
((When was the last time you talked to them?)):	today
((Do they have strange taste in music?)):	yes but so do i
((Have they ever been arrested?)):	no
((Do they have a pool?)):	no
((How do you like their parents?)):	her mom is ok...and i dont know her dad that well
((Do they play any sports?)):	used to play rugby
In Conclusion...
((Who is your best friend?)):	Emma leigh (couldnt you tell that???)
((Are any of them in your top eight for no reason?)):	yeah
((Who has dated the most people?)):	mandy or david
((Who is the most innocent?)):	innocent??? my friends??? Probably Chris
((Who's the funniest?)):	Mandy
((Who did you comment last?)):	Emma
((Who commented you last?)):	Emma
((Who do you have pictures of on your MySpace?)):	ummm...i think i have a prom picture on there so number one and two
((Who has the best house?)):	well concidering i love Emmas house hers...
((Who has the coolest parents?)):	Emma and Mandy (their mum is the fucking best)
((Who is/would be your concert buddy?)):	Emma
((Who gives the best hugs?)):	Chris
((Who's the most gothic?)):	Mandy
((Who's the best dancer?)):	Mandy (cus she is a whore!! [but i love her <333])>
((Who would be the best actor?)):	no making me answer this one
((Who would win American Idol?)):	Emma or mandy
((Who would go on and make a fool of themselves?)):	Emma Mandy or David
((Who is the most original?)):	dunno
((Who is the most popular?)):	popular??? we have such thing??? probably Nikki
((Have any of the people in your top eight ever dated?)):	Mandy and David...and Tori and David...
((Who is the biggest partier?)):	Nikki or Tori
((Who's the most laid back?)):	Chris
That's All

can I panic now???

woah boy...t-minus however many hours and counting....oh my...kinda freaking...i am not going to sleep tonight....going to be very tired come tomorrow...I am excited though...i just dont adjust to change very well at all...so this is hard for me...but it wont take me long to adjust...the first week is going to be a panic attack and a half for me...but im ready...or as ready as i will ever be,...time to be grown up and move on...i can do this...i know i can!!!

Sing, Dance, Dance, Sing, Fall, Get up, Laugh, Dance, Sing, Sing, Change, Keep Singing and dancing, Drink, Pass Out

The life of an actor

end of summer quiz

1. met someone new? Yes many people :D

2. kissed someone? no...i dont do that stuff anymore...my kisses are for special people :P

3. Cried? many times

4. Wanted someone you couldn't have? story of my life

6. Been to a party? a few

7. Talked on the phone all night? yes Nikki :P

8. Stayed up all night? Multiple times...courts party, teddy bear picnic, the day mandy slept over, my bday, and a few just random days i didnt go to bed

9. Went shopping? yup

10. Been out of the country? nope...i hardly got out of my house

11. Been hit on? ah yes!!!

13. Been asked out? no people dont like me that way

14. Asked someone out? not technically

15. Got in a car with a stranger? yes a few times...well they were not total strangers...but i didnt really know them

16. Lost someone close? thank god i havent

16. Slept in someone elses bed? yes...a few times

18. Got drunk? NO AHAHAHAHAHAHA

19. Been to a club? no not old enough yet :(

20. Been grounded? nope

21. Fell in love? i hope not

22. Regret something? no

23. Been dumped? No

24. Lied? who hasnt

25. Done anything against the law? no i am a good girl :P

27. Got in a fight? not a fist fight but a few fights

28. Smoked cigarrete? yes :(

29. Stayed at a hotel? nope

30. Made out with any one? no

31. gotten a job? yeah i work tomorrow :(

32. Liked/Like someone? idontwantto