hopeless

i hake liking someone...it really really pisses me off...it really is my one pet peeve and i cant fix it...you know the fucking feeling...when you cant breath thinking about them?? or the stupid bubbles you get?? fuck fuck fuck!!!! i really no like it...like why couldnt this all be really easy??? if feeling were mutual and all that shit??? why cant that happen in real life??? im 18 and really havnt had a relationship (i had one but i am really trying to forget it happened...it was that bad, so bad i have no dated since...which is sad cus we ended in grade 8...yes Michelle has not had a boyfriend since she was 14) so it kinda sucks...and im still like a high school kid...my mind is still set that way and it is going to be hard to change (by high school i mean like that stupid little girl thing ><>