stupid script

so i have to write a script for crew 140 and it is due today...but...it is going to take me so much longer then that to write it. im doing a play about John...or rather what i went through when i lost John. and it is going to include real things that happened...including the day i found out to the funeral to visiting the tressle and the waterfall to now. with details changed...it will be exactly what happened..in stage format. the hardest thing will be opening myself up enough to write it all. i normally dont let people in when i am hurting...you may think i do...but i really keep most of it in. im working on being more open but sometimes it is hard. expecially when it is in the past. i like to keep the past in the past. that is where it is supposted to be and there it shall stay. only...mother says i shouldnt keep it all in like this. says it is bad for me. she said i should just let it all out or i will just overload one time. little does she know i already do that. it is easyer that way...keep it all in till something triggers it all and you cry and scream for 3 hours and then it is over for awhile. it never happens in public ... only when i am alone. it really is easyer that way. some people wear their heart on their sleve...which is fine as long as they arnt depressed. i cant stand when people are all emo and shit and they are always sad. it is really annoying sometimes. i have a few friends that are like that and they (for the most part) are like 12 - 14...and i just look at them and go..."what do you have to be sad about?" sure it may seem the end of the world that you and your best friend had a fight about the guy you like...but get over it. it really bothers me how people are like that. if you got something to be actually sad about then go for it...but if you got nothing...and people who compain about their parents...omg they bother me. everyones family is screwed up. hell my dad is an alcholic and a coke addict...and my mom...over protective...but you know what?? they are my family and i love them. these kids who just dont get it. they piss me off. take what you get. there are people out there with abusive familys and they are usually the ones with the smile on their face. one of my friends is always complaing about her mom...how she is over pretective and all that. but you know waht?? she doesnt want you to turn into a druggie which most of the people in pville end up doing anways. seroulsy...i need to make a t-shirt that says "i made it out of pville without a drug addiction" it would be interesting.

wow rant much...haha...im going to go now...try and write this fucking script :P