ah memories....
anyways...have not been that good at updating have i? well lets see...my back is screwed right now...so is my left knee and my right sholder...go firgure eh? going to the doctor about my sholder problem next friday...
other then that...im kinda sad right now...the show ends in three days...that is so depressing to me. i love this show so very much....it has been the best show i have ever been on...and i've done some pretty amazing shows...i've learned so much from this one show...more then i have all year in school...im going to miss it.
other then that...im happy....kinda...things are kinda working out in my life and for that i am gratefull...so i'll talk later...im going to try and make it to school tomorrow...i cant stand missing it
January 31, 2007
January 30, 2007
steals**
61 Odd Questions. (LIES)
1.) Do you talk in your sleep? nope...but Ju does...and he answers :P
2.) Red Jello or Blue Jello? blue
3.) Whats the song thats getting on your nerves right now? none really
4.) Favorite Food Group: fruits
5.) What's your favorite color(s)? pink
6.) Window seat or aisle seat? window
7.) Ever met anyone famous? the moffits...yeah beat that :P
8.) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life? yes
9.) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl!
10.) Who do you like - Ricky Lake or Oprah Winfrey? neither
11.) Basketball or Football? hockey
12.) How long do your showers last? half an hour
15.) Are you self-conscious? most of the time
16.) Have you ever given money to a bum? yup
18). Where do you wish you were? Hawaii...i miss it there
19. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? do not think so
20.) Can you tango? i can try
21.) Last gift you received? a cooler on new years :P
22.) Last sport you played? hoops
23.) Things you spend a lot of money on? to many random things
*at this point I'd like to ask what the fuck happened to 24 and 25*
26) Favorite FAST food restaurant? subway
27) What food will you not eat? bunny rabbit
28) Can you sing? no but i try
30) What's your least fav. chore? unloading the dishwasher
31. Favorite Drink?egg nog or chocolate milk
32) Are you a vegetarian? no...i get sick
33) Do you believe in Heaven? yes
34) Do you miss someone? more then anyone will understand
35) Have you ever come close to dying? only by my own hand
*WHERE IS 36?! THIS SURVEY IS SCREWY!*
37) Are you eating? mints
38) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? duh...cant eat the tree without the trunk
39) Do you wear makeup? yup
40) Whats your worst fear? being alone forever and not suceeding
41) Would you ever have plastic surgery? probably not
42) What do you wear to bed? whatever i fall asleep in
*Ok, seriously, I got screwed outta the questions!*
45) What kind of shoes do you wear usually? sk8 shoes...or heels
46) Do you want kids? in time
47) Future child's name? not a clue yet
* this makes me sad*
50) Do you snore? sometimes...ususally when i'm all stuff
51) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? hawaii with emma
52) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? not anymore...i tend to throw them out of my bed or decapitate them while sleeping...i tore my stuffed snakes head off in the middle of the night once
53) If you won the lottery, what would you do? do theatre for the rest of my life...buy a house in hawaii...buy off my moms house....buy her a new car...
54) Gold or silver? silver...i hate gold
55) Hamburger or hot dog? hamburger
56) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be ? sandwiches
57) City, beach, country? beach
58) What was the last thing you touched? mint wrapper
59) What did you eat last? salad
60) When was the last time you cried? when i read saras memorial in the girl guide magizine
61) Do you read blogs? me? never
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? purple
2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? a certian boy...emma leigh...urinetown
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? singing
4. Honestly, what did you do today? was sick...and urinetown
5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? no
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? dont think i have
7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? whenever i am at emma's
8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? very
9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? Music, emma leigh, Josh, Theatre
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails? nope
11. Honestly, what is your mood right now? missing someone
12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? no...what kinda question is that?
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? i want to see emma, and josh
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? everyone does
16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? other then my father...no
17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? emma leigh, josh, these two come up a lot
18. Honestly, are you loyal? in every way i can be
19. Honestly, are you in denial? constantly
20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? depends on with who
21. Honestly, who is your best friend? emma leigh
22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? me? nope never in my entire life...that is a foul liquid...DEMON DRINK!
23. Honestly, do you like someone? do i have to answer this?
24. Honestly, does anyone like you? i wish...would make my life easyer
25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? that would be a negitive...check another heart break for M
26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? yessum
wow did you notice the two names that always came up? miss you so much Em...we have so much to catch up on...
1.) Do you talk in your sleep? nope...but Ju does...and he answers :P
2.) Red Jello or Blue Jello? blue
3.) Whats the song thats getting on your nerves right now? none really
4.) Favorite Food Group: fruits
5.) What's your favorite color(s)? pink
6.) Window seat or aisle seat? window
7.) Ever met anyone famous? the moffits...yeah beat that :P
8.) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life? yes
9.) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl!
10.) Who do you like - Ricky Lake or Oprah Winfrey? neither
11.) Basketball or Football? hockey
12.) How long do your showers last? half an hour
15.) Are you self-conscious? most of the time
16.) Have you ever given money to a bum? yup
18). Where do you wish you were? Hawaii...i miss it there
19. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? do not think so
20.) Can you tango? i can try
21.) Last gift you received? a cooler on new years :P
22.) Last sport you played? hoops
23.) Things you spend a lot of money on? to many random things
*at this point I'd like to ask what the fuck happened to 24 and 25*
26) Favorite FAST food restaurant? subway
27) What food will you not eat? bunny rabbit
28) Can you sing? no but i try
30) What's your least fav. chore? unloading the dishwasher
31. Favorite Drink?egg nog or chocolate milk
32) Are you a vegetarian? no...i get sick
33) Do you believe in Heaven? yes
34) Do you miss someone? more then anyone will understand
35) Have you ever come close to dying? only by my own hand
*WHERE IS 36?! THIS SURVEY IS SCREWY!*
37) Are you eating? mints
38) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? duh...cant eat the tree without the trunk
39) Do you wear makeup? yup
40) Whats your worst fear? being alone forever and not suceeding
41) Would you ever have plastic surgery? probably not
42) What do you wear to bed? whatever i fall asleep in
*Ok, seriously, I got screwed outta the questions!*
45) What kind of shoes do you wear usually? sk8 shoes...or heels
46) Do you want kids? in time
47) Future child's name? not a clue yet
* this makes me sad*
50) Do you snore? sometimes...ususally when i'm all stuff
51) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? hawaii with emma
52) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? not anymore...i tend to throw them out of my bed or decapitate them while sleeping...i tore my stuffed snakes head off in the middle of the night once
53) If you won the lottery, what would you do? do theatre for the rest of my life...buy a house in hawaii...buy off my moms house....buy her a new car...
54) Gold or silver? silver...i hate gold
55) Hamburger or hot dog? hamburger
56) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be ? sandwiches
57) City, beach, country? beach
58) What was the last thing you touched? mint wrapper
59) What did you eat last? salad
60) When was the last time you cried? when i read saras memorial in the girl guide magizine
61) Do you read blogs? me? never
1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? purple
2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? a certian boy...emma leigh...urinetown
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? singing
4. Honestly, what did you do today? was sick...and urinetown
5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? no
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? dont think i have
7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? whenever i am at emma's
8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? very
9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? Music, emma leigh, Josh, Theatre
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails? nope
11. Honestly, what is your mood right now? missing someone
12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? no...what kinda question is that?
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? i want to see emma, and josh
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? everyone does
16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? other then my father...no
17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? emma leigh, josh, these two come up a lot
18. Honestly, are you loyal? in every way i can be
19. Honestly, are you in denial? constantly
20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? depends on with who
21. Honestly, who is your best friend? emma leigh
22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? me? nope never in my entire life...that is a foul liquid...DEMON DRINK!
23. Honestly, do you like someone? do i have to answer this?
24. Honestly, does anyone like you? i wish...would make my life easyer
25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? that would be a negitive...check another heart break for M
26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? yessum
wow did you notice the two names that always came up? miss you so much Em...we have so much to catch up on...
January 29, 2007
sick
so im home sick again...i caught half the cold the cast has and half the flu bug my family has...makes for an interesting thing...i cant talk cus my throat is so swollen...my tummy feels like someone punched it...im coughing...sneezing...arg no fun...i really wanted to do emo day today too....
other then being home sick...im pretty good...the show is going great and i keep running into people randomly...like my neighbor and a kid from my old school (hey em...remember Micheal Crawford...Hi!! yeah he came...kool hey!@) so yeah....
im going to rest....so i cna make tomorrow
other then being home sick...im pretty good...the show is going great and i keep running into people randomly...like my neighbor and a kid from my old school (hey em...remember Micheal Crawford...Hi!! yeah he came...kool hey!@) so yeah....
im going to rest....so i cna make tomorrow
January 25, 2007
8 months!
8 crazy months....
crazy eh? time flys...tonight...was...interesting...and i totally proved that i am growing up...normally i would have freaked out tonight..but i didnt...i remained relativly calm...which is scary for me cus i normally dont...i lose it very easy...but yeah didnt and thats really cool for me...
thats about all i got...there was this really annoying kid on the bus today...i honetly wanted to smack him...i almost did....
anyways...bed time...i get to sleep in tomorrow...hopefully i'll get to talk to someone :D
January 24, 2007
I'd die without you
yeah...ok nothing really to report...many things i want to keep to myself lately...my thoughts are getting more and more mine and less and less for the whole world to see...maybe im growing up? scary thought....
other then that...im so fucking tired...dont even know if i am going to make it to school tomorrow...probably...but i dunno...i have a fucking bruise like no other right now...from those damn seats at mal...running around the theatre for warm up durring acting today...smacked into one of them...let me tell you...it is epic!
so yeah...thats all i got...im sleeping now
other then that...im so fucking tired...dont even know if i am going to make it to school tomorrow...probably...but i dunno...i have a fucking bruise like no other right now...from those damn seats at mal...running around the theatre for warm up durring acting today...smacked into one of them...let me tell you...it is epic!
so yeah...thats all i got...im sleeping now
January 23, 2007
i have a juice box
yeah...so today i ALMOST lost it...durring the rehersal...it wasnt cus of the rehersal...it was cus of me and my thinking...i was onstage doing my job of striking the stairs...others were doing sound stuff...and what song do they choose to play? time of your life by green day...THE SONG THAT I CANNOT LISTEN TO WITHOUT THINKING OF JOHN!!! ahhh so i was like...just get it done and go be emo for a bit...so i did...went and left emma a voice mail...almost cried...went outside...almost cried...went to the green room...took deep breaths...almost lost it...Juli came in and asked what was wrong...i couldnt tell her without sobbing so i feel bad...i hate losing control like that...it is the first time i have "cried" about John in about 2 months...insane hey? its 8 months on opening night...and 2 months for Sara on the 26th....
oh man...Josh makes me feel better :) he makes me smile...its kinda nice...
but enough emo...i get to do that on monday...we are having an emo day...where everyone is going to dress emo and be all emo and it is going to rock hard core...
COME SEE MY SHOW!!!
oh man...Josh makes me feel better :) he makes me smile...its kinda nice...
but enough emo...i get to do that on monday...we are having an emo day...where everyone is going to dress emo and be all emo and it is going to rock hard core...
COME SEE MY SHOW!!!
January 22, 2007
one song glory
tonight was a big long rehersal...but it was killer and looks sooo fucking good...i took my camera tonight and got some freaking awesome pictures which i will put up somewhere...probably on my web site...just so people can get to them...but yeah...i wont be able to do much this next week cept urinetown stuff...cus i am just that busy...i just got home today...we ran till about 11 tonight...it was crazy...but so much fun...i went shopping today...got some awesome t-shirts...oh and MY PARENTS ARE GETTING A DIVORSE! i dunno why i am putting that in caps...i just am...dont know how i feel about it....its gonna be ugly...if it goes to court i am going to have to stand up to one of my parents...i'd like to say my mom at this point but i dunno...most likely...just cus i am living with her mainly...but w.e im going to bed...
January 21, 2007
Run Freedom Run!!!!
so had rehersal today...worked out the revolve...which i am fantastic at i might add lol but serously...looks like a show now...i can see it all in place...i love it
enough about the show...you;re all going to be sick of it before you see it. i got other stuff to update on...like my father...who i called today...twice...he wasnt returning my mothers calls so i called him...he doesnt have my phone on his call desply...so i called...he said he would call her back later...so 6 rolls around...he hasnt called her...i call him again...he didnt have time to call her *huge eye roll* lol...anyways...
more cool stuff...aparently Josh told somone that if i did quit smoking it was a date...or something...i dunno...Emma-leigh has high faith in him not ot break my small heart...im very sceptical...i mean he hangs around mandy...and that doesnt leave much chance for ANYONE to compare...if you knew her you would understand...as much as i love the girl...she makes you feel like shit...so yeah...who knows what might happen...but i am LE tired...so i am going to bed...nighty all (L)
enough about the show...you;re all going to be sick of it before you see it. i got other stuff to update on...like my father...who i called today...twice...he wasnt returning my mothers calls so i called him...he doesnt have my phone on his call desply...so i called...he said he would call her back later...so 6 rolls around...he hasnt called her...i call him again...he didnt have time to call her *huge eye roll* lol...anyways...
more cool stuff...aparently Josh told somone that if i did quit smoking it was a date...or something...i dunno...Emma-leigh has high faith in him not ot break my small heart...im very sceptical...i mean he hangs around mandy...and that doesnt leave much chance for ANYONE to compare...if you knew her you would understand...as much as i love the girl...she makes you feel like shit...so yeah...who knows what might happen...but i am LE tired...so i am going to bed...nighty all (L)
January 20, 2007
I Believe In Love When I'm Completly By Myself Alone
so i am so fucking tired today...had load in...loaded to much in and tired myself out by 1...which wasnt good...so now i am le tired...and sore...and my body feels like it is on fire...but you know what?? TOTALLY WORTH IT! i feel great...in my life right now...this show is the best thing i got going for me...idk what i would be feeling right now without it...im truly a mess...but this show is making me forget all that...dear god im going to be insane afterwards...
How Many Roads Till I Find My Way?
thinking again...i was just surfing around nex and i decided to check on John's page...it will be 8 months on opening night...8 fucking months...where did january go? its a lot easyer now...but certian subjects still kinda make me sad...like when people talk about suicide...it isnt a joke...no matter what the context...it is always wrong. sure when i was in grade 10 or 11 my thing to say was "i wish you would go kill youself." which i hate that i said that. pretty sure i thought it about John multiple times. i dunno where i was going with that...maybe just to say you should always think about what you say/think and never wish death on anyone. just my thoughtfull ness for today....
back to reality...i have lighting hand in 3 hours...hence why i am not sleeping...no point really...i got to bed now be more tired...so i stay awake...plus...a whole day with erik...
so anyways...my head hurts...i drank to much tonight...bad mother buying michelle malibu!! uh uh not cool...
there is a big truck oustide turing around and kinda freking me out...silly big truck...i dont even wanna know what it is...probably my silly neighbor bringing home his big rigg...
anyways,...stuff to do
back to reality...i have lighting hand in 3 hours...hence why i am not sleeping...no point really...i got to bed now be more tired...so i stay awake...plus...a whole day with erik...
so anyways...my head hurts...i drank to much tonight...bad mother buying michelle malibu!! uh uh not cool...
there is a big truck oustide turing around and kinda freking me out...silly big truck...i dont even wanna know what it is...probably my silly neighbor bringing home his big rigg...
anyways,...stuff to do
January 19, 2007
crazy laugh ahahahah
The Errington Hall Board Proudly Presents:
A NIGHT AT THE PALACE NO. 3: AN EVENING OF VAUDEVILLE AND BURLESQUE
Because of out past success we are offering to evenings to experiance this unique and completely new version of the show!
Friday, February 23 and Saturday, February 24.
It will be taking place at The Palace AKA The Errington War Memorial Hall.
Doors will open at 7:15pm and the show will begin at 8pm. Get there early to get good seats.
BUY YOUR TICKETS IN ADVANCE!!! This is important...we have sold out both previous years and we expect the same this year!!!
Tickets go on sale the end of this week for $15 at:
Errington Store, Blasting Impressions (Parksville), and Timbuktu Music (Qualicum).
IMPORTANT: This show contains MATURE CONTENT! Not recommended for children under the age of 12.
Features include:
Bowser Betty and her lovely musical stylings.
Farrah Lee Dumure wearing...well...she really dosn't wear much does she?
Errington Gothic come to life once more to sing for us.
The piano playing of Mr Tommy Ticklefingers!
This is going to be the best year ever! DO NOT MISS IT!
Audiance is encouraged to dress up! Circa 1900-1940!
A NIGHT AT THE PALACE NO. 3: AN EVENING OF VAUDEVILLE AND BURLESQUE
Because of out past success we are offering to evenings to experiance this unique and completely new version of the show!
Friday, February 23 and Saturday, February 24.
It will be taking place at The Palace AKA The Errington War Memorial Hall.
Doors will open at 7:15pm and the show will begin at 8pm. Get there early to get good seats.
BUY YOUR TICKETS IN ADVANCE!!! This is important...we have sold out both previous years and we expect the same this year!!!
Tickets go on sale the end of this week for $15 at:
Errington Store, Blasting Impressions (Parksville), and Timbuktu Music (Qualicum).
IMPORTANT: This show contains MATURE CONTENT! Not recommended for children under the age of 12.
Features include:
Bowser Betty and her lovely musical stylings.
Farrah Lee Dumure wearing...well...she really dosn't wear much does she?
Errington Gothic come to life once more to sing for us.
The piano playing of Mr Tommy Ticklefingers!
This is going to be the best year ever! DO NOT MISS IT!
Audiance is encouraged to dress up! Circa 1900-1940!
Yeah michelle got another show to do...i love doing this one cus it isnt really traditional theatre...but it rocks hard core...you get to dress up!!! i did last year for doing lights and i had soo muhc fun...people called me tinkerbell on acid! cus it was hard core me being insane and running around in a great skirt! and im going all out this year...
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yeha that was me last year lol
come see it! it is going to be amazing
January 18, 2007
tease me about my age and i will beat you with my lollypop!!
hahahaha so im completly crazy right now...lack of sleep i guess...i picked up my hat that i usually wear around my younger friends...which says "teast me about my age and i will beat you with my cane" wihch doesnt work with the show i am doing nor really with mal people...so i changed it and now that is going to be my saying whenever people say im younger or that they are going to the bar...yeah thats right...michelle is going to get annoying....*evil laugh*
yeah so anyways...WE MOVE INTO THE THEATRE ON SATURDAY!!! NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL REHERSALS!!! FUCKING RIGHTS!!! AHHHHHHH SOO HAPPY I COULD CRY!! serously...i am never doing that again...just to hard expecially with a fucking musical with dances...gack...i am so effing happy about this show...but i am mentally and emotionally and bodly exausted right now...my mind isnt thinking straight...since when is it right? well i cant even talk today...soooo tired...but im not going to bed cus i am running on sugar!! my whole mind just went blank...god damnit!! arrrrggggg no it really didnt...it floated to a boy...which...im almost at the point of giving up on though i havnt even tried...hurah!!
so yeah...one week till opening...and i have quite a bit to do tomorrow so i should be in bed...fuck my ipod charger is up stairs...fuckin fucker...im to lazy to go get it...where the fuck is the toher one...
yeah so anyways...WE MOVE INTO THE THEATRE ON SATURDAY!!! NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL REHERSALS!!! FUCKING RIGHTS!!! AHHHHHHH SOO HAPPY I COULD CRY!! serously...i am never doing that again...just to hard expecially with a fucking musical with dances...gack...i am so effing happy about this show...but i am mentally and emotionally and bodly exausted right now...my mind isnt thinking straight...since when is it right? well i cant even talk today...soooo tired...but im not going to bed cus i am running on sugar!! my whole mind just went blank...god damnit!! arrrrggggg no it really didnt...it floated to a boy...which...im almost at the point of giving up on though i havnt even tried...hurah!!
so yeah...one week till opening...and i have quite a bit to do tomorrow so i should be in bed...fuck my ipod charger is up stairs...fuckin fucker...im to lazy to go get it...where the fuck is the toher one...
January 17, 2007
what is it when the snow melts?
well the answer to that is SPRING duh!! hahaha good olds times...my friend heather and i used to say that all the time. i just love the comedy yet the drama of fruits basket....like this little moment
Yuki: What can I learn from a stupid cat like you? You didn’t even know that Jason isn’t really a bear. He’s a character in a horror film.
Kyo: Yeah? So what if I didn’t? Like I’d waste my time watching some movie about a bear!
Yuki: You truly are an idiot.
Kyo: Oh, that’s it! (You’re going down)
oh man...its makeing me feel better...there are stupid fan girls that i want to kill...of geeze...i just want to kill them...them and their stupid fan girl ish ness...lol....
i leave you with a real good amv about the show...much more angsty then the actual show
Yuki: What can I learn from a stupid cat like you? You didn’t even know that Jason isn’t really a bear. He’s a character in a horror film.
Kyo: Yeah? So what if I didn’t? Like I’d waste my time watching some movie about a bear!
Yuki: You truly are an idiot.
Kyo: Oh, that’s it! (You’re going down)
oh man...its makeing me feel better...there are stupid fan girls that i want to kill...of geeze...i just want to kill them...them and their stupid fan girl ish ness...lol....
i leave you with a real good amv about the show...much more angsty then the actual show
January 16, 2007
WARDROBE MALFUNCTION!!
so this is going to be half happy...and half really really depressing...so if you want happy...read only the first bit...then comment
so for the first bit...which almost made michelle die of laughter tonight...we were all at rehersal...michelle not really up to par...more on that later...but durring one of the scenes our lead..whose name shall remain to me only...has to kinda pull the buttions on his jumper to reveal his tshirt...well...tonight...his zipper broke...and well...i almost died...he decided to not wear pants tonight...just underwear...and his zipper goes all the way down to his crotch...and i nearly died...
and to the not so happy part...i feel worthless agian...and i dont know why....and it is realyl bothering me....i had a great day...but i got to rehersal and just felt like i couldnt do anything anymore...like maybe theatre isnt for me...i want it sooo badbut maybe i cant make it after all....i just got home and burst into tears...AND I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHY!>! my life is great right now...but i want something more...i hate this soo much....i feel like im not worth anything right now...like i should just give up on theatre and live my life another way...i know i dont want to do that...but i just feel....god and im crying again....im getting into shows that are above my levil...or they feel that way...im not as good as others out there....yet i feel i am and need to voice this...which gets me in trouble...god i hate having no back bone!! it sucks...the littlest things are getting me down again and this shouldnt happed....i need to go be happy...i'lll see you all later
so for the first bit...which almost made michelle die of laughter tonight...we were all at rehersal...michelle not really up to par...more on that later...but durring one of the scenes our lead..whose name shall remain to me only...has to kinda pull the buttions on his jumper to reveal his tshirt...well...tonight...his zipper broke...and well...i almost died...he decided to not wear pants tonight...just underwear...and his zipper goes all the way down to his crotch...and i nearly died...
and to the not so happy part...i feel worthless agian...and i dont know why....and it is realyl bothering me....i had a great day...but i got to rehersal and just felt like i couldnt do anything anymore...like maybe theatre isnt for me...i want it sooo badbut maybe i cant make it after all....i just got home and burst into tears...AND I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHY!>! my life is great right now...but i want something more...i hate this soo much....i feel like im not worth anything right now...like i should just give up on theatre and live my life another way...i know i dont want to do that...but i just feel....god and im crying again....im getting into shows that are above my levil...or they feel that way...im not as good as others out there....yet i feel i am and need to voice this...which gets me in trouble...god i hate having no back bone!! it sucks...the littlest things are getting me down again and this shouldnt happed....i need to go be happy...i'lll see you all later
January 15, 2007
say good bye to mr right....
so yet again MICHELLE IS FUCKING SICK!@ woke up this morning not being able to breath/move....not fun....so mom said i am staying home...which she never does...usually makes me go...i must have looked pretty bad...god not fun....
i just have no energy right now...none...took me an hour to get out of bed once i had fully woken up....arg....i hate missing classes...it sucks hardcore...
i was all full of hope last night and now...nothing...just nothing...the nothingness is back...and i dont like it one bit...
i just have no energy right now...none...took me an hour to get out of bed once i had fully woken up....arg....i hate missing classes...it sucks hardcore...
i was all full of hope last night and now...nothing...just nothing...the nothingness is back...and i dont like it one bit...
January 14, 2007
alrighty....
so im quitting smoking....i have fully decided...its done...im sick of it...i know i can do it...i just got to not have smokes anymore....
i think i can do it too...
thanks Josh...maybe one day we can be more then friends....*wishfull thinking*
i think i can do it too...
thanks Josh...maybe one day we can be more then friends....*wishfull thinking*
IT ITCHED!!!!
yeah thats right...lol
my back is so itchy today...it is driving me mad...and it is sore...but not where the tattoo is...just above it on the right side...strange...
so since everyones blogs are really about thinking this past while...i have been thinking too...i've just kinda let thoughts wash over me this last little while...but last night i thought...and thought...and thought...and then i thought again...i dont even know what i was thinking about...i just was...letting my thoughts go wherever they must...and i feel really at peace right now...getting this tattoo was really a step in letting go of my past and moving on...i never did explain did i?
well i got the rose cus
a: my grandmother who i lost when i was 6 raised beautiful rose gardens
b: Johns fav flower was the yellow rose
and C: this particular designe was one i found on the little paper thing that was handed out at my uncles funeral...it was a stamp
it is pink cus it is my fav colour...and pink it a thanks...on roses at least...so it is thanking people for making me who i was...
lastly the symbol is eternal...which has two meanings to me...one...remembering all thoes i lost...and this is going to sound really silly...but it is putting Chris behind me too...his old email was eternal_infliction.....so it is me letting go of certian things and moving forward with my life...
and to the other things i was thinking about...WHEN THE FUCK DID I GROW UP!!??
when i was at BSS...there were certian people i just wanted to smack and say grow the fuck up! which is totally weird cus i used to hold some of them really high in my life....and now its like fuck off...i honeslty couldnt be around some of them...when did that happen? they used to be my best friends...another thing stuck me as weird...i saw my friend Kara...and she told me that i looked like a theatre kid...dont ask me how...mainly with the way i talk...?? and she also said i am being corrupted cus i have a tattoo and a tongue piercing...go figure...
it really doesnt feel like i have...but maybe i did and didnt notice...cus that would be oober cool...
my back is so itchy today...it is driving me mad...and it is sore...but not where the tattoo is...just above it on the right side...strange...
so since everyones blogs are really about thinking this past while...i have been thinking too...i've just kinda let thoughts wash over me this last little while...but last night i thought...and thought...and thought...and then i thought again...i dont even know what i was thinking about...i just was...letting my thoughts go wherever they must...and i feel really at peace right now...getting this tattoo was really a step in letting go of my past and moving on...i never did explain did i?
well i got the rose cus
a: my grandmother who i lost when i was 6 raised beautiful rose gardens
b: Johns fav flower was the yellow rose
and C: this particular designe was one i found on the little paper thing that was handed out at my uncles funeral...it was a stamp
it is pink cus it is my fav colour...and pink it a thanks...on roses at least...so it is thanking people for making me who i was...
lastly the symbol is eternal...which has two meanings to me...one...remembering all thoes i lost...and this is going to sound really silly...but it is putting Chris behind me too...his old email was eternal_infliction.....so it is me letting go of certian things and moving forward with my life...
and to the other things i was thinking about...WHEN THE FUCK DID I GROW UP!!??
when i was at BSS...there were certian people i just wanted to smack and say grow the fuck up! which is totally weird cus i used to hold some of them really high in my life....and now its like fuck off...i honeslty couldnt be around some of them...when did that happen? they used to be my best friends...another thing stuck me as weird...i saw my friend Kara...and she told me that i looked like a theatre kid...dont ask me how...mainly with the way i talk...?? and she also said i am being corrupted cus i have a tattoo and a tongue piercing...go figure...
it really doesnt feel like i have...but maybe i did and didnt notice...cus that would be oober cool...
January 13, 2007
Pictures!! wooot!!
so there they are...the rose blead a bit...hence why the colour looks funny...its just a little bit of blood...but it is fine now...it didnt really hurt either untill he got to the leaves and that hurt like a mother fucker...
in other news...just got home from emma-leighs...we had a blast...lots of random high school moments which i might share...but probably not...cus i dont really want to...
ta ta for now
January 12, 2007
I HAVE A FUCKING TATTOO!!!!
CAN YOU FUCKING BELIEVE IT!!!!! it is sooooooo pretty...more then i ever imagined...like pretty pretty pretty pretty!! i heart it. it will be on the forum or here or wherever i put it....i love it...i cant put up pictures now cus im not at home...nor would i be at home tonight....im going to emma leighs to spend the night cus i rock like that
yeah yeah i know
another post in one day...i need to think and get stuff out...and this is where i shall do it
im starting to miss little things about high school...not the problems but just little things...like how i could pretty much do anything there...i never felt weird about being there...i feel weird about being at Mal sometimes...i've grown up a lot since high school...ask Nabil ... we were talking about it the other day at the mall...it was good to talk to him and resolve some problems that we kinda had...we never really got along...well scrach that...i never really got along with people...i went through a lot when my dad was still at home...it was hell to come home to him drunk and bitching about something...im sorry to all those who i went to school with...they never really knew...well im sure they could see it in my face...and im sure some of them were smart enough to realize somethings...like how i got suspended on the day my dad moved out...or how after that date i slowly changed...i let Emma-leigh in...before then i dont think i really did...my heart was elsewhere...i was somewhere i couldnt reach it...i didnt want to hurt anymore...i just wanted to trust people and to have someone there for me no matter what...my dad was never there...so i looked to guys...but i went about it all wrong...i dont know how to describe it...i was really different then...
i may or may not add more to this...i have to go for now...
im starting to miss little things about high school...not the problems but just little things...like how i could pretty much do anything there...i never felt weird about being there...i feel weird about being at Mal sometimes...i've grown up a lot since high school...ask Nabil ... we were talking about it the other day at the mall...it was good to talk to him and resolve some problems that we kinda had...we never really got along...well scrach that...i never really got along with people...i went through a lot when my dad was still at home...it was hell to come home to him drunk and bitching about something...im sorry to all those who i went to school with...they never really knew...well im sure they could see it in my face...and im sure some of them were smart enough to realize somethings...like how i got suspended on the day my dad moved out...or how after that date i slowly changed...i let Emma-leigh in...before then i dont think i really did...my heart was elsewhere...i was somewhere i couldnt reach it...i didnt want to hurt anymore...i just wanted to trust people and to have someone there for me no matter what...my dad was never there...so i looked to guys...but i went about it all wrong...i dont know how to describe it...i was really different then...
i may or may not add more to this...i have to go for now...
January 11, 2007
rawar!!!
I FUCKING HATE SNOW!!! IM FUCKING STUCK AGAIN AND MIGHT NOT GET MY TATTOO!!!! AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGgggggg
ok now that that is done...i might not be getting the tattoo after all cus i might not be able to get out of my street...WHICH SUCKS! i have wanted a tattoo since i was 10! 8 fucking years! grrr...im mad...im thinking i might just bus it...cus i am not missing this at all...
in other news...i missed school and rehersal tonight cus of the snow...and my meeting...both my meetings...so im pretty pissed about that too...today was kinda a bust for me...except for...
SKYPE! jeeze it is so very much fun...we rock to the max...
yeah thats all i got....pretty boring
ok now that that is done...i might not be getting the tattoo after all cus i might not be able to get out of my street...WHICH SUCKS! i have wanted a tattoo since i was 10! 8 fucking years! grrr...im mad...im thinking i might just bus it...cus i am not missing this at all...
in other news...i missed school and rehersal tonight cus of the snow...and my meeting...both my meetings...so im pretty pissed about that too...today was kinda a bust for me...except for...
SKYPE! jeeze it is so very much fun...we rock to the max...
yeah thats all i got....pretty boring
January 10, 2007
ENOUGH ALREADY!!
getting very very sick of this weather...lets start at the beginning of this whole tale shall we?
yesterday...stay up really late the night before...made it to school...had some very fun times...after theatre history...it is pouring down rain...not cool...go to stage craft...there is sun outside...get out of stage craft...it is fucking snowing...great call my mother...we have no power cus there is a fucking tree across the power lines but we can still drive under it..ok...go to the mall...hang out with people come out of mal...cold but nothing else...get to rehersal...just about to go stand at the door...it starts to fucking snowing ...ok scrach that...it is fucking hailing...great...so go to rehersal...keep checking in with my mom...cant get under the tree anymore...fucking hell...so after rehersal...scrape the covered cars...Gary drives me home...or rather at the bottom of my street cus i have to walk...so i walk...in the freezing cold...see the tree...and the power lines holding it of the ground...but pulling the lines down further...but it still pretty high off the ground...go about 10 feet more and there is another down line...ok no power for a few hours...effing snow...wake up today...mother says there is no way in getting to school as the tree is almost on the ground now with the lines not broken but on the ground...peachy...and the busses i hear were all screwy...power finally came on about 15 mins ago...hopefully no more of this...please no more...not right now...feb...sure but not untill after Urinetown PLEASE!?!?!?!?!
yesterday...stay up really late the night before...made it to school...had some very fun times...after theatre history...it is pouring down rain...not cool...go to stage craft...there is sun outside...get out of stage craft...it is fucking snowing...great call my mother...we have no power cus there is a fucking tree across the power lines but we can still drive under it..ok...go to the mall...hang out with people come out of mal...cold but nothing else...get to rehersal...just about to go stand at the door...it starts to fucking snowing ...ok scrach that...it is fucking hailing...great...so go to rehersal...keep checking in with my mom...cant get under the tree anymore...fucking hell...so after rehersal...scrape the covered cars...Gary drives me home...or rather at the bottom of my street cus i have to walk...so i walk...in the freezing cold...see the tree...and the power lines holding it of the ground...but pulling the lines down further...but it still pretty high off the ground...go about 10 feet more and there is another down line...ok no power for a few hours...effing snow...wake up today...mother says there is no way in getting to school as the tree is almost on the ground now with the lines not broken but on the ground...peachy...and the busses i hear were all screwy...power finally came on about 15 mins ago...hopefully no more of this...please no more...not right now...feb...sure but not untill after Urinetown PLEASE!?!?!?!?!
January 8, 2007
owie fingers!!
i have been playing my guitar for 2 hours and my fingers really hurt!! but its totally worth it...i can strum now....yes to you people that dont mean much...but to me it does...and i know a chord...A to be exact....and i tuned it myself...breaking only two strings in the process...luckly the gave me extra strings when i bought it...but i did it...and it is perfectly in tune...and i heart it soooooooo much...big loves for michelles guitar!!!
in other news...back to school...was pretty damn great. i got to see everyone...and be a freak again...i saw no other program screaming peoples names and running to give them hugs...thats cus we are the best! duh! omg i just said duh...ok so im weird...got to do a lot of stuff for Urinetown today...and Sure Thing...im getting busy again...going to be a busy two weeks but it is going to be worth it...
going back to the guitar now...byes
in other news...back to school...was pretty damn great. i got to see everyone...and be a freak again...i saw no other program screaming peoples names and running to give them hugs...thats cus we are the best! duh! omg i just said duh...ok so im weird...got to do a lot of stuff for Urinetown today...and Sure Thing...im getting busy again...going to be a busy two weeks but it is going to be worth it...
going back to the guitar now...byes
January 7, 2007
This Is Urinetown...Always Will Be Urinetown...
guess what i been all day?? haha woot rehersal. it's looking so very good...almost there...which is good cus there is less then two weeks till we move into the theatre...and im pretty much stoked....this is by far the best show i have ever been part of...i just feel like flying durring the rehersals (which might be due to something else...*blushes* haha anyways...the trust my judgement...which is something that has never really happened...and I GOT TO GIVE NOTES TONIGHT! which was totally cool! i've never done that...and im getting the hang of blocking...and im going to be running the revolve...and i get to work with anthony again...which if you think of it...is really funny...or it is to me or anyone who knows the story...oh man i was such a little girl then :P
anyways...im more trusted in this show...i have jobs that i have to report back on...i feel important for one of the first times in my life. i feel needed...i like this feeling. i got so many thoughts running through my head....its crazy...so much fun...so many laughs and good memories...i had so much i wanted to say but i cant remember them...and i dont care....
school tomorrow...funfun!!
anyways...im more trusted in this show...i have jobs that i have to report back on...i feel important for one of the first times in my life. i feel needed...i like this feeling. i got so many thoughts running through my head....its crazy...so much fun...so many laughs and good memories...i had so much i wanted to say but i cant remember them...and i dont care....
school tomorrow...funfun!!
tired!!!
ahhhh im up so early...silly early rehersal...at least i'll sleep tonight...that is all i have to say...school tomorrow..yay acting! chow!
ps...5 days till tattoo
ps...5 days till tattoo
January 6, 2007
yahoo!!
my tattoo apt. is on friday the 12th...i went in today and talked to him...he's really cool and he is going to take the design and make it better...im pretty excited!!!!! this is something i have wanted since i was 10! so...who wants to come with me??
E Gad!! (cus it bothers you em :D)
so...cleaned my room...and im back to posting twice in one day....oh silly me...but back to the room...i found a lot of things i have not seen since i moved into my room in the basement...like some of my posters...i forgot i had a HUGE poster of Capt. Jack Sparrow...or my pale ale poster...and just some other random things...lik my millions of "sex braclets" haha remember those?? i think it was like grade 10 i started wearing them...and i still have a bunch...and for old time sake i am wearing them...also wearing pearls and my hat...im look rather strange right now...but totally cool!!
found some old scripts too...ones that i forgot about...some that i wrote...and i wrote one of them in grade 10...and it was almost preformed at the drama festival the following year...and it sucked! go figure eh?
going into the tattoo shop tomorrow if all goes well..crossing my fingers that no one is booked so i can get it done tomorrow...probably not though...i dont even know if it is open tomorrow but i shall go and look anyways...i really want this done before the sun even starts to come up cus...i start getting burnt in march ususally...and it going to be on my back where i get most sunburnt...going to have to wear sun tan loation this year (YUCK!!!)
well that is the random for today!! 2 days till school guys!! i really really miss you all and cant fucking WAIT till im back!
found some old scripts too...ones that i forgot about...some that i wrote...and i wrote one of them in grade 10...and it was almost preformed at the drama festival the following year...and it sucked! go figure eh?
going into the tattoo shop tomorrow if all goes well..crossing my fingers that no one is booked so i can get it done tomorrow...probably not though...i dont even know if it is open tomorrow but i shall go and look anyways...i really want this done before the sun even starts to come up cus...i start getting burnt in march ususally...and it going to be on my back where i get most sunburnt...going to have to wear sun tan loation this year (YUCK!!!)
well that is the random for today!! 2 days till school guys!! i really really miss you all and cant fucking WAIT till im back!
January 5, 2007
wow look at me go!!
a WHOLE DAY WITHOUT A POST!!! its insane...its un heard of!!its also cus my internet cut out last night which SUCKED cus i was downloading new songs for my colecion! im moving on from my old sappy music to more harcore music with more guitar and drums and such! which includes a lot of 3 days grace. riot fast becomging an overplayed song on my computer...but i like it...and it has been stuck in my head since new years cus Julien kept playing it over and over and over...make that boxing day...
so as you can see i really dont have much...rehersals going good...im going to audition to be in more shows with B2B...i want to be in more shows...i love that i am working outside of BSS and Mal...i never done that and it is really fun. meeting new people and working with new people. excited!
3 days till school starts...im kinda scared...i've changed a lot since i was last in school...it seems so long ago now....it was the end of november when i had my last class cus of the snow...and two exams where i didnt stick around...im just hopeing i get a second chance to be me. cus i am really awesome!
in other news...i get to run the revolve for Urinetown...so im going to need to be taught that...cus i really dont know...some pretty tricky turns too...but im excited...im excited for a lot of things...im just excited to be alive right now...and im excited cus i am in school and not sitting on my ass. im excited cus i am doing something i love right now in life. and im excited cus i know i will always do it....cus i dont think i could live without it
so as you can see i really dont have much...rehersals going good...im going to audition to be in more shows with B2B...i want to be in more shows...i love that i am working outside of BSS and Mal...i never done that and it is really fun. meeting new people and working with new people. excited!
3 days till school starts...im kinda scared...i've changed a lot since i was last in school...it seems so long ago now....it was the end of november when i had my last class cus of the snow...and two exams where i didnt stick around...im just hopeing i get a second chance to be me. cus i am really awesome!
in other news...i get to run the revolve for Urinetown...so im going to need to be taught that...cus i really dont know...some pretty tricky turns too...but im excited...im excited for a lot of things...im just excited to be alive right now...and im excited cus i am in school and not sitting on my ass. im excited cus i am doing something i love right now in life. and im excited cus i know i will always do it....cus i dont think i could live without it
January 3, 2007
SHOTTY BEING NUMBER ONE GROUPIE!!
hokay...now that that is out of the way...today has been another thinking day...a really weird thinking day...i watched a bunch of movies when i got home...listening to music...designed my tattoo...which is now finished and perfect...talked to Josh...flirted hardcore with Josh cus i can...and i love computer flirting...you never really know what the other person is thinking...making it really interesting...used to do that with Chris all the time...till he got a Girlfriend and got emo and blarg...moving on...thinking...thinking...lots of thinking...i really dont know whether i am going to get an acoustic guitar or an electric...or drums...i dunno!! im stuck!! i want a new instrament...
ok rambling much! what i was actually thinking about...it morbidly enough...death...and immortaliy...if given the choise would i live forever? or if i died tomorrow would i be happy? the answers were not that hard to come by...i would not live forever...i cant stand seeing others die and it would take a piece out of me everytime i saw someone die...and would i be happy if i died tomorrow...yes i would. i have no regrets...i would be terribly sad to leave people behind...but in my short life i feel full...i have experanced a lot for only being 18...i feel much older then i actually am...hence making myself more immature? i dunoo...just thinking...im growing up before my own eyes...
ps...5 days till school starts...excited? yes i am!
ok rambling much! what i was actually thinking about...it morbidly enough...death...and immortaliy...if given the choise would i live forever? or if i died tomorrow would i be happy? the answers were not that hard to come by...i would not live forever...i cant stand seeing others die and it would take a piece out of me everytime i saw someone die...and would i be happy if i died tomorrow...yes i would. i have no regrets...i would be terribly sad to leave people behind...but in my short life i feel full...i have experanced a lot for only being 18...i feel much older then i actually am...hence making myself more immature? i dunoo...just thinking...im growing up before my own eyes...
ps...5 days till school starts...excited? yes i am!
so today...
pretty great day...i went to the bank today...so i could buy my bus pass and put away a grand for paying off my loan...and to my suprise i had a balance of 4000...i was a little shocked...i got my student loan...so i have money again...which fucking rocks!! im getting my guitar soon...and my tattoo...im working on the designe right now...it is going to be a rose...which i have...and it is going between my sholdur blades...it just needs something more...i will figure it out...it will be a perfect tattoo...
January 2, 2007
new years resolutions...and then some
so im not moving out...mother bribed me with a guitar and my tattoo...so getting thoes soon...
but that is not what i am here...my new years resolution is to stop putting myself down and to stop hanging out with people who do so. last two days are a great example...new years i got shut down...hardcore shut down...so i felt like shit...then some other stuff happened that normally i wouldnt care about but i was already pissed...so i get more pissed...really hating males in general today...until i go to rehersal...and Erik gave me the belated Christmas card..which rocked...and then i get home...and Josh...the hot drummer has not only added me as a friend as new but sent me a message and a comment...how much does that rock?
so there is a great example...great guys which i ususally just ignor...cus im a bitch..not anymore...
and now to do the music thing cus i can....
1:
Now that you're gone I'm wasting away
The life has been siphoned right out of my veins
If I could go back in time
I'd say those three words
2:
Times that people
Have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve
Held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
3:
Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?
4:
Seems you’re wanting me to stay
But my dreams would surely waste away
And I still have nowhere else to go
So I wait for you to
Take me all the way
5:
if you wreck my day you son of a bitch you gonna get some
6:
why'd you go and break what is already broken?
7:
all shes asking is for a little more time
to walk away from his anger
and leave the bruises far behind
but she wont talk about it
she's made up her mind
8:
I'll find you somewhere
i'll keep on trying
untill my dying day
i'll just need to know
whatever has happened
the truth will free my soul
9:
so what if you can see
the darker side of me?
10:
life is a road and i wanna keep going
love is a river i wanna keep flowing
life is a road now and forever
yeah have fun
but that is not what i am here...my new years resolution is to stop putting myself down and to stop hanging out with people who do so. last two days are a great example...new years i got shut down...hardcore shut down...so i felt like shit...then some other stuff happened that normally i wouldnt care about but i was already pissed...so i get more pissed...really hating males in general today...until i go to rehersal...and Erik gave me the belated Christmas card..which rocked...and then i get home...and Josh...the hot drummer has not only added me as a friend as new but sent me a message and a comment...how much does that rock?
so there is a great example...great guys which i ususally just ignor...cus im a bitch..not anymore...
and now to do the music thing cus i can....
1:
Now that you're gone I'm wasting away
The life has been siphoned right out of my veins
If I could go back in time
I'd say those three words
2:
Times that people
Have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve
Held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
3:
Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?
4:
Seems you’re wanting me to stay
But my dreams would surely waste away
And I still have nowhere else to go
So I wait for you to
Take me all the way
5:
if you wreck my day you son of a bitch you gonna get some
6:
why'd you go and break what is already broken?
7:
all shes asking is for a little more time
to walk away from his anger
and leave the bruises far behind
but she wont talk about it
she's made up her mind
8:
I'll find you somewhere
i'll keep on trying
untill my dying day
i'll just need to know
whatever has happened
the truth will free my soul
9:
so what if you can see
the darker side of me?
10:
life is a road and i wanna keep going
love is a river i wanna keep flowing
life is a road now and forever
yeah have fun
soo..moving
i got into dorms...Morden...room 2128...and im kinda scared...sure it will be great...i got to have the money in tomorrow...to hold the room...i just dont know...i really want to...it just kinda scared me a lot being put on the spot...i could just not go...but...i dunno...this just confused my new year soo much...i slept all yesterday...so this is pretty much my first day...i dont even know if i have the money...i do but it has to be in tomorrow...i dont know if i can do that....it would make class easyer....but rehersal more difficult...im just confused...i have people pulling both ways...some people want me to go and think it would be a good thing for me...i agree with them...but i agree with the other people that think it might be too big of a step for me...
funny thing is...i was already going to come on here and say why i was already confussed...now im more confussed...god damnit i hate growing up some times...i have to go think
funny thing is...i was already going to come on here and say why i was already confussed...now im more confussed...god damnit i hate growing up some times...i have to go think
January 1, 2007
continue...
that would be Live Band...the bass is Julien, Drums/Vocals is Josh and Alex is On Electric...the video is crap qualitly...cus i was sitting way to close to the amp...the bass amp at that...so you hear way to much bass which distorts it...but it is still a video...and now...PICTURES!!
Emma-Leigh With Guitar :D
Mandy, Carol, and the rest of the party
Andrew and Julien...they were both pretty high
Julien...i love this picture!!
Shot Glass Snakes and Ladders :D
All pretty drunk at this point...
Me and Shannon :D
What happened to my guitar...really drunk at this point
before the smashing of guitar...about 4 in the morning
Andrew and me...i wasnt very sober at that point
so this ended my night...more pictures on my web site...www.preppy-superstar.piczo.com
chow bella
I HAVE MAGIC MARKERS AND ADD...OH THE FUN I WILL HAVE!!
ok so lets break this down for you...IT WAS A FUCKING BLAST@!!!!@!@!#@$%#@$@%&^Q!$^%@! start at the beginning..ok!!!
so i get there at..2 ish...live band had already been there (yes live band is there name...and they were a live band...oh the irony) so i helps clean up best i can...i dont do well with spiders and there were spiders...so we clean so live band can set up...and they came in and set up...but not before michelle goes to the side of the house and gets really fucking stonned...like hard core...but it was worth it...went back in...listened to josh play the drums and clayton play the electric...sounded pretty good and i was just kinda spacing...so ...about 5 ish the high starts to wear off...i ride it all the way to the end before i start drinking...i started at about 7...i thought it was 6...maybe i was still a *little* high...so go and get my cooler...drink that one...more people come...go into emmas room...play snakes and ladders with shot glasses...that game gets boring so we all just take a shot...and another...and i have another cooler...and some malabu...or however the fuck you spell it...and this is where it gets a *little* fuzzy...alls i know is that i looked at the time at 9:30 and all of a sudden it was 11:30...pretty sure i was outside a lot...and live band played...i have video if you care to see it...give me a line...
so all i remember doing in that two hours is drinking...smoking...listening to live band...and sitting in Alex's car hot boxing and hanging off of Andrew...ohhh remember something...Julien had some missletoe on a headband and kept going around the party....im pretty sure i kissed him a little more then once...maybe three times...in the coruse of .... 30 mins...maybe...i dont remember...but new years rolls around...im jumping everywhere...being an idiot...making noise...coutdown begins...pretty sure i am not even counting right...i screm happy mother fucking new years...turn to Andrew...very stealthy...i say..."hmm new years kiss"./... and i gots one...then i went around to everyone in the party and gave them kisses on the cheek...cept Julien...who i might have kissed again...dunno...cant remeber...woah another part of my night just came back...i kissed katie...and she found my tongue ring...that was interesting...anyways...after new years...i lose more time...till about 2 when people start passing out...oh i didnt lose those hours...i was emo...ok gots it...so at 2...i decide to draw on ryan...cus i rock....and then i go around with sharpie and mark everyone...and then i lose a few more hours...till 4 ish...when i remember max singing queen songs...and acting them out...he rocks my life...laughing my ass off...then more people wander to bed...i am not sleeping tonight i decided....so hung around being loud till about 6...when we were all like...holy shit it is six...then people started getting up...aand lets just say...when michelle is still a bit tipsy (i didnt stop drinking till about 2-3 in the morning) and really tired...i get really snappy...and i got some good lines...
so more morning rolls around...im kinda hung over...more tired...ready to crash...but dont...go to the beach at like 8 ish...realy pretty with waves and such...really cold though...and im still losing some hours cus before i know it...my mother is there...and i am going home...and sadness...
so i pretty much heart these people...expecially the new boys...Julien and Andrew..they fucking rock...i cant even describe what they are like...although julien reminds me a lot of Biff...
so my new years rocked...
new years pictures on my web site bitches
www.preppy-superstar.piczo.com
so i get there at..2 ish...live band had already been there (yes live band is there name...and they were a live band...oh the irony) so i helps clean up best i can...i dont do well with spiders and there were spiders...so we clean so live band can set up...and they came in and set up...but not before michelle goes to the side of the house and gets really fucking stonned...like hard core...but it was worth it...went back in...listened to josh play the drums and clayton play the electric...sounded pretty good and i was just kinda spacing...so ...about 5 ish the high starts to wear off...i ride it all the way to the end before i start drinking...i started at about 7...i thought it was 6...maybe i was still a *little* high...so go and get my cooler...drink that one...more people come...go into emmas room...play snakes and ladders with shot glasses...that game gets boring so we all just take a shot...and another...and i have another cooler...and some malabu...or however the fuck you spell it...and this is where it gets a *little* fuzzy...alls i know is that i looked at the time at 9:30 and all of a sudden it was 11:30...pretty sure i was outside a lot...and live band played...i have video if you care to see it...give me a line...
so all i remember doing in that two hours is drinking...smoking...listening to live band...and sitting in Alex's car hot boxing and hanging off of Andrew...ohhh remember something...Julien had some missletoe on a headband and kept going around the party....im pretty sure i kissed him a little more then once...maybe three times...in the coruse of .... 30 mins...maybe...i dont remember...but new years rolls around...im jumping everywhere...being an idiot...making noise...coutdown begins...pretty sure i am not even counting right...i screm happy mother fucking new years...turn to Andrew...very stealthy...i say..."hmm new years kiss"./... and i gots one...then i went around to everyone in the party and gave them kisses on the cheek...cept Julien...who i might have kissed again...dunno...cant remeber...woah another part of my night just came back...i kissed katie...and she found my tongue ring...that was interesting...anyways...after new years...i lose more time...till about 2 when people start passing out...oh i didnt lose those hours...i was emo...ok gots it...so at 2...i decide to draw on ryan...cus i rock....and then i go around with sharpie and mark everyone...and then i lose a few more hours...till 4 ish...when i remember max singing queen songs...and acting them out...he rocks my life...laughing my ass off...then more people wander to bed...i am not sleeping tonight i decided....so hung around being loud till about 6...when we were all like...holy shit it is six...then people started getting up...aand lets just say...when michelle is still a bit tipsy (i didnt stop drinking till about 2-3 in the morning) and really tired...i get really snappy...and i got some good lines...
so more morning rolls around...im kinda hung over...more tired...ready to crash...but dont...go to the beach at like 8 ish...realy pretty with waves and such...really cold though...and im still losing some hours cus before i know it...my mother is there...and i am going home...and sadness...
so i pretty much heart these people...expecially the new boys...Julien and Andrew..they fucking rock...i cant even describe what they are like...although julien reminds me a lot of Biff...
so my new years rocked...
new years pictures on my web site bitches
www.preppy-superstar.piczo.com
new years
so i am sitting here right now at emma's drunk as a fuck...barly standing right now...hence why i am on my knees...so tired...just want to pass out...just want to kill boys...you know all tha5 shhit...lovwe you all!!! really missing my theatres right now...but i really wish my emma was a theatre cus,...i heart her and she makes everythging better!!
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