WARDROBE MALFUNCTION!!

so this is going to be half happy...and half really really depressing...so if you want happy...read only the first bit...then comment

so for the first bit...which almost made michelle die of laughter tonight...we were all at rehersal...michelle not really up to par...more on that later...but durring one of the scenes our lead..whose name shall remain to me only...has to kinda pull the buttions on his jumper to reveal his tshirt...well...tonight...his zipper broke...and well...i almost died...he decided to not wear pants tonight...just underwear...and his zipper goes all the way down to his crotch...and i nearly died...

and to the not so happy part...i feel worthless agian...and i dont know why....and it is realyl bothering me....i had a great day...but i got to rehersal and just felt like i couldnt do anything anymore...like maybe theatre isnt for me...i want it sooo badbut maybe i cant make it after all....i just got home and burst into tears...AND I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHY!>! my life is great right now...but i want something more...i hate this soo much....i feel like im not worth anything right now...like i should just give up on theatre and live my life another way...i know i dont want to do that...but i just feel....god and im crying again....im getting into shows that are above my levil...or they feel that way...im not as good as others out there....yet i feel i am and need to voice this...which gets me in trouble...god i hate having no back bone!! it sucks...the littlest things are getting me down again and this shouldnt happed....i need to go be happy...i'lll see you all later