new years resolutions...and then some

so im not moving out...mother bribed me with a guitar and my tattoo...so getting thoes soon...

but that is not what i am here...my new years resolution is to stop putting myself down and to stop hanging out with people who do so. last two days are a great example...new years i got shut down...hardcore shut down...so i felt like shit...then some other stuff happened that normally i wouldnt care about but i was already pissed...so i get more pissed...really hating males in general today...until i go to rehersal...and Erik gave me the belated Christmas card..which rocked...and then i get home...and Josh...the hot drummer has not only added me as a friend as new but sent me a message and a comment...how much does that rock?

so there is a great example...great guys which i ususally just ignor...cus im a bitch..not anymore...

and now to do the music thing cus i can....

1:
Now that you're gone I'm wasting away
The life has been siphoned right out of my veins
If I could go back in time
I'd say those three words

2:
Times that people
Have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve
Held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind

3:
Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?


4:
Seems you’re wanting me to stay
But my dreams would surely waste away
And I still have nowhere else to go
So I wait for you to
Take me all the way

5:
if you wreck my day you son of a bitch you gonna get some

6:
why'd you go and break what is already broken?

7:
all shes asking is for a little more time
to walk away from his anger
and leave the bruises far behind
but she wont talk about it
she's made up her mind

8:
I'll find you somewhere
i'll keep on trying
untill my dying day
i'll just need to know
whatever has happened
the truth will free my soul

9:
so what if you can see
the darker side of me?

10:
life is a road and i wanna keep going
love is a river i wanna keep flowing
life is a road now and forever


yeah have fun