IT ITCHED!!!!

yeah thats right...lol

my back is so itchy today...it is driving me mad...and it is sore...but not where the tattoo is...just above it on the right side...strange...

so since everyones blogs are really about thinking this past while...i have been thinking too...i've just kinda let thoughts wash over me this last little while...but last night i thought...and thought...and thought...and then i thought again...i dont even know what i was thinking about...i just was...letting my thoughts go wherever they must...and i feel really at peace right now...getting this tattoo was really a step in letting go of my past and moving on...i never did explain did i?

well i got the rose cus
a: my grandmother who i lost when i was 6 raised beautiful rose gardens
b: Johns fav flower was the yellow rose
and C: this particular designe was one i found on the little paper thing that was handed out at my uncles funeral...it was a stamp

it is pink cus it is my fav colour...and pink it a thanks...on roses at least...so it is thanking people for making me who i was...

lastly the symbol is eternal...which has two meanings to me...one...remembering all thoes i lost...and this is going to sound really silly...but it is putting Chris behind me too...his old email was eternal_infliction.....so it is me letting go of certian things and moving forward with my life...

and to the other things i was thinking about...WHEN THE FUCK DID I GROW UP!!??
when i was at BSS...there were certian people i just wanted to smack and say grow the fuck up! which is totally weird cus i used to hold some of them really high in my life....and now its like fuck off...i honeslty couldnt be around some of them...when did that happen? they used to be my best friends...another thing stuck me as weird...i saw my friend Kara...and she told me that i looked like a theatre kid...dont ask me how...mainly with the way i talk...?? and she also said i am being corrupted cus i have a tattoo and a tongue piercing...go figure...

it really doesnt feel like i have...but maybe i did and didnt notice...cus that would be oober cool...