life

when did i change??? i went back to my old high school yesterday and ...it was diferent...i felt different...i was happy...i'm never happy....even when i was happy last year i wasnt really happy...it is hard to describe. maybe i never wanted to be really happy last year?? i dunno..but i wasnt. something was always wrong in my life but it now seems trivial. it is amazing how fast this change happened...it was just like here. in some ways i am more like the kid i used to be before whalebone theatre and others are new devolpments.


anyways... will type more later when i take of these god damned fake nails..they are impossible to type in lol