blarg

yeah i dont even know...today has been...well not a good day...i started out this morning by wakeing up late...so fucking tired...last night was a blast though and sooo worth it...but i, like always went and checked my phone...and there was this message...from someone...with a really not nice message...and anyone who talked to me in the morning would have seen me shaking...i was pissed...but turnes out...it was someone else and i am glad that got cleared up...cus i was flipping (thank you emma leigh,...once again you come through for me *hugs* ) so even though it wasnt who it said it was...it wasnt a nice this and it pissed me off...and once i am pissed off it takes me a bit to calm down...so most of today i was trying to not snap at people...but it did get better ...got to talk to people and calmed down quite a bit...but ...i dunno...i feel so left out with the theatre people,..and it is nothing they are doing it is just me...i cant let go of high school...i really want to...but i miss it...and i know i complain about this lots and it is going to get annoying...(if it isnt already) but this is who i am...and i want...i dont even know what i want anymore...i just want to be me...i want to let people know who i am...