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long time no update...sorry...got busy with school and father and friends and lots of shit...be prepaired for long entry...going to try my best to update...

totally done school...was a very hard year...it was ok in the beginning but it slowly got harder...first semester i dropped out of english cus i couldnt finish in time...so i screwed over second semester by having to do english again...and i had to do bio 11 cus you need it to grad...so i was stuck with one course that i kinda like and one that i hate...kinda screwed wasnt i?? and by second semester i was back in to drugs (completly quit now but not then) i was doing pot daily ... at school too...and i was doing anything else that was handed to me...drinking alot at school too...which ws kinda screwey cus if i had got caught...i would have got 20 days suspesion...which would have screwed me over...so i skipped a lot to...cus i was stonned or such...or didnt care...

dont get me wrong... a lot of good things happened to ..which made me miss school to...like provincials...for drama...taking jerry finnegans sister to chilliwack for the provincial festival was a blast...but then i had to go back and go right to prom...and then a party...which i got a killer hangover from and i got sick too...so i missed 4 days of school cus of it...and i missed school constantly for festivals and such...running the stage band festival and the drama festival...and going to hawaii...put me behind...by may i was failing both courses with no end in sight...i had 2 plays to put on so i was kinda screwed...i risked being kicked out of the plays...so i worked my ass off...school working and learning lines and building sets...it was crazy...but i finally got it all together...by the end of may i thought it was going to be easy sailing...but no that is never how it works is it??

RIP John Coogan The 5th...March 2nd 1988 to May 25th 2006

losing John hit everyone hard...but we had to go on...the cast of Inhert the wind...we were taking it hard...the ones who knew him...we had to go straight from the funeral to onstage...i had half and hour to get ready and go on...true test of how much i want to be in theatre....it took courage...expecailly since i was first on and had to play a little girl...a happy joyfull little girl...it was tough...this was only the third time i had ever been onstage...and the other ones didnt take that much acting...so it was tough...but i didnt it...

I finished school...done for good...no more high school...the last day at school i cried so hard...leaving behind a theatre i had worked in and helped build for 3 years was tough...my best friend was there and was going to be there for another year....

the summer didnt help much...my dad decided to seperate from my mom...after 18 years together they are done...and that is hard...

all in all...im glad this year happened...i am a different person then i was...im going to make it on my own no matter what now...

"today is the beginning of the rest of your life"