old memories...new friends

it is kinda weird how when i am with the mal people i want to talk about the BSS people and when i am at BSS i want to talk about the Mal people...am i just fucked up? it seems really strange to be here right now...i dont even know why i am...maybe lack of sleep....or maybe i am trying to figure something out...and i might have done it already. i know i rant and rave about a lot of things and i thank you all for putting up with it but...here it is...i need people to need me. that is why i like comming back here...i like being able to help people and make them feel better. today i have already talked to two of my friends about their problems with school and home and i feel like i have a purpose in life again. i want to go on with this even though it may be hard. i need to have people rely on me and to notice when i do little things...it may be asking alot...but it is what i need....