November 23, 2006

lost in the darkness hopeing for a sign

today was a great day...it was a day of crazyness and descovery....totally spelt that wrong but whatever....i get to be in a movie and hopefully is going to lead to me quitting smoking...*crosses fingers* in going to need help on this guys...i really am...nothing else really eventful happened...well it did but going to keep that to myself and the few people who know...talked to Azusa on the bus today...and that helped...she has realy good advice...then i came home...and it seems like everybody updated their blog today...i had much new things to read which was awesome...then i got to marthas blog...and it reminded me how ignorat some people are...i always grew up to respect everyone no matter what their sexualiy/race/gender all that shit that parents should teach their children. i forget how some people didnt grow up that way...with my uncle being gay i learned how to accept those things....
i remember the day my mom told me...we were watching that thing about the purple tela-tubby being gay...and i was bitching about it...how it was soooo stupid that little kids wouldnt care....and then my mom said how would you feel if you knew someone gay...and i told her I'd be fine...and then she told me...i was fine...i still am...it didnt change anything nor will it ever...i have met some of my uncles partners....and i love them...he lost him salmon and i loved him too...i wear the necklace he gave me on my wrist all the time...His name was David...he died of AIDS....that blog really made me think...i remember the time my Girl Guide leader told me that AIDS was most commen in gay men...which is wrong...we got in a huge argument cus after that she basically said that all gay men have AIDS...i left in tears...stuff like that really pisses me off...i found out my uncle had AIDS from a friend of mine...that hurt me more a lot...i love my uncle more then my father...he has been living with AIDS since the 80's(see my connection to RENT now) i guess i am lucky to be in the theatre group...cus i really dont think i could be friends with people if they were not ok with gay people...

anyways...that is my little rant ...

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