i dont know anymore

i dont know if i am going back to school...i dont know if i am ever getting out of this. im stuck right now in this thing...and i dont know how to get out. i think i might have already missed to much...im so behind. ive got emails into my teachers...and i hope they say i havent lost my spot...cus i dont know what i will do. im just soo lost right now. i cant even see a light at the end of the tunnel. i used to have some sort of a plan...which always included finishing out this year...but right now that doesnt seem possible. and i hope you guys still read this cus i could use some good memories right now...please?