i love skillet!!<3

honestly...this song made me snap tonight...in a good way...it made me think...my life aint that fucking bad. i will back to school. fuck everyone who doesnt believe in me. fuck people who make me feel like i have. they are not worth it. i was feeling so low but i shouldnt. im worth im worth peoples time. i am worth being here. and i am sick and tired of feeling like im not. i have amazing friends who love me for who i am so why should i constantly need to test them? i dont. i dont need to put up with anything. im honestly ok again right now. i dont know what made me come to this...i just kinda did. Josh poped online and i was like..."he isnt going to get to me" and he didnt. i am not letting it anymore.

btw i am quitting smoking...this time for real. i am done. in the past 2 days i have had 6...which may seem like a lot but for me who usually is done an entire pack in 2 days...that is a 75% cut down be proud. those three a day are going to be hard to stop but im gonna do it.

also...for those who want to...at a date undecided we are hot boxing my basement. yes everyone is welcome. my friends from school will be comming too...it is going to be a fucking intence day. but going to be fun.

i really hope all you can come to my next party. cus it really did rock. i had more to say in this but i forget.

ok this is the song i was listening too ...it is pretty amazing how it is like my past...and how people have said those words to me...

You come to me with your scars on your wrist
you tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn’t want you to see me cry, I’m fine
But I know it’s a lie

Chorus:
This is the last night you’ll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I’m everywhere you want me to be
The last night you’ll spend alone
I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I’m everything
You need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don’t know you like I know you they don't know you at all

I’m so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie

Bridge:
The night is so long when everything’s wrong
If you give me a chance
I will help you hold on
tonight
tonight

I won’t let you say goodbye
And I’ll be your reason why
the last night away from me
away from me




it is sooo amazing....look Skillet up...they are freaking FANTASTIC!!

oh yeah...keep up with the memories things. they are making me soo very happy. i love seeing how people view me and i have a bad memory so it is nice to see people who love me leave me some love!! <3333333333