i know im posting twice...but i just cant get things out of my head. em you know i take things harder then you...you're so much stronger then me in that aspect. seeing mandys room probably will hit you at one point but i cant get it out of my mind. with everything i have been though...when will it fucking end? i dont deal well with emotional pain. i would rather be beaten to nothing then see one of my friends die...does that make we weird? i just cant deal with emotional stuff. and its funny cus i used to be really good at it.. go go supression. throught out the past 2 years i have had so many memories come back to me...and so much pain. up untill grade 11 i didnt remember anything before the age of 7...i didnt remember moving here...i didnt remember anything from vancouver. i didnt remember my grandparents who i lost...none of it. i blocked it from my mind. but then i found emma leigh....and believe it or not em...you changed my life. i dont think you ever knew how far gone i was. how good i was at hiding everything. its hard to deal with 16 years of emotional pain in two years. im not trying to bitch and complain or anything...all that has happened has made me who i am...and i am SO greatful that me and you are friends. i would have died without you em. you're not just my best friend...you are my other half.
i dont know where that came from...its been in my head for awhile...it wow...came out...
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