lets start a RIOT!!!!

god i cannot wait to get back at school...stupid depression making me not want to go! im such a fucking idiot! i dont need this fucking drama that my life brings me. honestly fuck him. fuck her too. i dont need this bull shit. i thought the problem was the new people in my life but it isnt. its me. i push people away. and i cant believe i fucking did it again! you have no idea how sorry i am to the people i might have hurt. i am a fucking idiot. i wanted to give up. i want to stay in this stupid drama hell hole forever and that is dumb. i want to be involved in it and i dont know how to stop that. i bring this shit apond myself. if i had just said something it would have changed things. i should have said something. this is not who i want to be. i dont want to be the person that gets purposly hurt cus i have nothing better to do. i dont want to hurt people anymore cus i am hurting to much. its not right. this is the final thing. i may have ruined some things that would have been great for me. friendships that would have lasted a long time but i couldnt keep my fukcing mouth shut. and i really am sorry. it may be to late for that and i know this. i have accepted it and im going to try harder.

so i shall see you all tomorrow...that is a promise. and i wont be the same person. im not letting this bother me anymore. it is a stupid thing to get all depressed about. it is a fucking boy. i dont need it. i dont want it