love heals

so tonight was pretty awesome...kinda mellow but still kool...got to see a lot of people i had not seen in awhile...which was really nice...it is always nice to see friends...

so i went though my old blog on nexopia and was looking at things...and i noticed that people said that i love me friends...a lot...and i guess i do...that is something that i can always fall back on is what i have done for others. i never had real friends untill i got to high school. like i really dont talk to people from elementary and middle school cus i was so different then. i had severe stage fright...suprising huh? and i was shy...i didnt like to let people in. i dont know when or why that changed but it did. i went from someone who let no one but got hurt to someone who lets everyone in and still gets hurt. honestly there are no secrets with me. i cant stand them. thats why i like to tell people how i feel about them. after John died i realized that life is soo short...you could die tomorrow. it could all be over for you. i never want that to happen to me. when i want to say something usually it gets said just cus i may never get that chance again. im me...im real...i dont lie anymore.

wow another rant for M :P

chow people BIG HEARTS!!