wow...

that is all i can say and all i have been saying all night....

lets start at the beginning shall we?

well i went to the sos as planned right...played guitar...then went to tie dye a shirt...did that..went for a smoke...emma leigh gets a call and she goes white (which is hard for em cus she is pale as fuck) anyways...me and kimmy know something is up cus she doesnt do this...so we follow her and she gets off the phone. her sisters room is on fire...or rather...burnt...she has nothing. let me tell you...its was the scarest thing i have ever experanced. i called my mom and she drove me and emma leigh and kimmy to the house...and i NEVER want to see this site again. fire trucks everywhere...water all over the street...people outside. i walk over to her mom....my second mom...and i almost lost it. i almost had tears running down my face...when you see my best friend...her sister who is my other best friend...and someone who i think of as my other mother...crying...i dont even know how to decribe it. it was an out of body experance...all that was going through my head was "stay calm and make everyone feel better" and i tried...and i hope i helped. i never want to go through that again...i got to look at her room and it was soo scary. she managed to shut her door so it was only in her room...but she has nothing left...the room is all charded. this is a room i have been in so many times. it was the scarest thing i have ever seen. to see that room like that with all the firefighters around and water and smoke...i just wanna be with them right now. that is my second family and when they hurt i hurt. so to stop this long blog where im pretty sure nothing makes sence cus nothing does to me right now....

RIP COUCH! i will miss thee...(the cushions were in mandys room...they were the last bit of my couch that used to eat everyone but me....)