suprise suprise!!

so i should not be updating cus i have to leave for school soon but I DONT CARE! i need to vent cus if i dont i am going to be grouchy today

i just found out from my mother that one of her close friends has C.O.P.D or something like that...hes one of my friends too...i have known him since i was born. his children are like family to me. i guess their son is now not phoning his mother since he found out. which worrys me more cus he isnt the smartest person ever...i know i should not be worring about what i cannot change but...please if there is a god in the world do not take Bill from us. my mother and i were talking the other day and he has always been there for me that i disussed with my mother who would walk me down the asle and i told her "i was thinking about bill, he's always been there when my father wasnt" but now....god this cant be happening...damnit no crying i just put on make up....

so please...if you believe in God...please pray for him. i knwo i will be. he has to make it though this...for all of us.