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so i had fun last night...i felt so loved :D i was in a hugging mood..and i got hugs from everybody :D which makes me super happy. i love hugs...they always make me feel like nothing is wrong...i dunno why...doesnt even have to be someone i know...just hugs are cool....and little things like kisses on the cheek, awe gezze i am getting romantic...*slap* bad M bad!! haha i love how i call myself M now...it is so easy to type....one letter and i am done...hokay...random entry...i am tired ok?!?!?! amandas roomates kept waking me up and then the sun woke me up..so i got like...an hour of sleep...and a hangover...which wasnt really kool cus i didnt have a lot to drink...1/4 of a mikey......not very much...but i guess i was tired...and took it straight...and hadnt eaten....so yeah i was pretty pissed last night...and i have discovered a random cut on my hand...and i dont know where it came from...

so i am pretty fucking excited for 12th night...i am having the best time making the set...and i cant wait for my old drama teacher to come and see the show. and then i can be all like "look...i helped build that...they let me use a saw...me...the kid who wasnt even allowed a hammer last year cus it wasnt safe...(i really wasnt allowed to use tools...i think i was allowed a screw driver and something else...i cant remember...i was kept FAR away from any power tools...cus kelly thought girls couldnt operate saws and drills...stupid sexist fucker) anyhoos...

so i was thinking last night...just sitting outside and thinking...i cant fucking wait till my 19th bday...i honestly thought i would be spending it alone and drinking in a bar all by my lonesome...but now...i dont have that feeling anymore...i think i am really starting to fit in...although i could be wrong. i think im growing up em !!!!! the little annoying brat is growing up...took long enough...im not saying i dont gots a long way to go...but ... i dunno...it is just something in me that thinks i am going to be ok....that i am not going to be a loner this year...that i have friends that i can talk to at mal...at least i hope...cus i did feel very alone that first little while...not by anyones fault but my own. and guess what em...I AM NOT A REAL CONTROL FREAK ANYMORE! i still kinda am...but you guys should have seen me last year.

well i think i am going to go and...do something...i think this is long enough for now...jsut a random tid bit into my life...once again :P haha

~M