i complain to much

i still feel like crap...but people dont really want to here that do they??? stupid society,...no matter what mood you are in people expect you to say good when asked how you are...what if i am not feeling good huh??? what if i feel like crap....and i want to voice that...no i cant do that cus people get all weird...serously...no matter what...people expect everything to be great in others lifes and if they are not then they should keep it to themselfs. well i dont work like that...i never have. sure i say things to see people reactions a lot...but when i am actually feeling crappy i want people to actually care...is that so much to fucking ask in this world??? i am so fucking sick of it. if we were all honest then it would be easyer...serously..tell me what you think of me....i want the fucking honest truth cus i cant stand when people go behind my back...if you got a problem with me FUCKING TELL ME!!! there is nothing more annoying then you knowing people are talking about you when you leave the room. i will never forget the time in high school when we were all in the drama room and i went in front of the curtian and most of the Sr's were in the back. well they all thought i had left...so they all decided to talk about me. they were laughing and making fun of me when i was right there...so i just looked at the other girl in the front of the curtian with me...smiled and cried in the bathroom. I WAS IN GRADE FUCKING 10!!!! i hate others...i dont trust people easly...adn when i do...it is usually a good person to trust...i have a good sence of that. gack...how cruel can you fucking get??? so that is what i want people to do...dont have to leave your name...BUT TELL ME THE FUCKING TRUTH!!