crappy

today was not good....im starting to think that it isnt worth it anymore...that i should just give up and become a hermit...im not good with people. i establish relationships with people and i cant let go...and i dont make friends very easy...i phoned emma today at the bus stop and i actually cried...me..i dont cry in public...i felt like an idiot but it is just so hard without her around. im whining again...i know i am being a baby but i feel so alone...god why cant things be simple!! ... i need a Chris hug :( or even talking to him would help but he still isnt fucking talking to me!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid bitch...