at the wits end

so...me and my mom had a HUGE fight tonight....over stupid things...but it came at the end that i am moving/being kicked out. she threw the fact that she pays my phone bill and she pays for my smokes and she pays for my food she even wants rent now..well...fuck her...honestly she made a promise that if we were in school we wouldnt have to pay rent. so guess what mother...you are going to bite your words...im moving out. like you said...i aplyed for the dorms at mal...and i hope i get in cus...i dunno what i would do other wise...but i need to get out...i need to live on my own cus...i cant be around her anymore. she always tells me i cant be the parent but she cant always act like a child...it doenst work that way mother..you cant throw temper tantrums ... how am i going to grow up if you cant fucking grow up? i need to be able to go out and NOT tell you every fucking detal! im 18...you dont need my friends phone numbers anymore...i dont need to be telling you every single detal about where ia m going and what time i will be home and who is getting me home...for fucks sake...it is insane...i just cant do it anymore...i was at my breaking point tonight...i sat outside and nearly froze to death cus i didnt want to be in the house...then i called emma and felt better...felt much better...im feeling better now...i just wish my mother wouldnt hold back what she wants to say...i hate that in people...i thought we were doing good but no...i guess not eh? all cus i wanted a little bit of privacy...cus i dont have a room here...i live in my basement...and when i want space you dont send my little brother to watch TV and piss me off...i just...need out...even if that means living in dorms...i'll take it...and then i can get a job...