sick yet again

i have another nasty cold...not happy...look at me go...not updating alot...i guess that might be cus things are working out...cept for this weather...pisses me off...im ok on my own. i love having friends...but i dont need them anymore...that sounds really bad but its not supposted to be. i know i can make it just me. i can move and go on and if they are good friends...they will be there. i think me and em proved that this year. we can be apart and we can not talk for weeks and come back together like nothing happened. i love that. i love life right now. its working out. and if something works out with a certian someone...then sweet. but if it doesnt...it wasnt meant to be and i can get over that. i got over Chris when i never ever thought that would happen...i never saw the end to that...something inside of me finally accepted that...so thats great...

anyways...got the sos tonight. i miss how that used to be but it is fun again...i get to learn guitar...i will get it damnit!! and im learning piano too... EDIT APPARENTLY I DONT GET TO FUCKING GO CUS MY MOM IS A FUCKING WHORE...THANKS MOM THE ONE FUCKING DAY I GET TO SEE MY OLD FRIENDS AND YOU TAKE THAT AWAY. WELL FUCK YOU.

in great news...i love this play...what more can i say...it is amazing...the dances are fricking amazing..Juli is fantastic. the music sounds amazing...it is just great...some really taleneted people and im only seeing more talent every night...as the music and dance come together...and...i might get to work the revolve! :D which would be killer...

Off in the distance
There's a beautiful horizon -
Gleaming and radiant
It's what I'll keep my eyes on -
As the world turns to face the sun
And start another day
It suddenly
Occurs to me
That maybe we can find another way
Look at the sky
Full of hope and promise
It's a shining ideal
How I reel
When I look at the sky

Daily we make them pay
Their nickles dimes and quarters -
Daily we break them
'Cause we have to follow orders
And we keep filling moneybags
With broken lives and dreams
But what's it for?
I can't ignore
These black immoral
Profit-making schemes

Look at the sky
High above this madness!
Here below feel our shame!
It must stop in the name
Of the sky!

"look at the sky - Urinetown!!