Goodbye may seem forever,

today has been another rollercoaster for me...just look at the blogs...i've been cranky all fucking day and I AM ANNOYED WITH MYSELF! and really tired...im really tired..my key board is falling apart...the space bar is all weird and now...my left arrow key is screwd...oh well...three year warenty :P wow it is late...i should be in bed...tomorrow is a long hard day...apparently i am heading to nanaimo in the morning or afternoon...depends on when mother wants to go...before or after the memorial. there were paper clippings today...say how she will be missed...and she already is....and i cant stop thinking about her newfew...im going to cry tomorrow...i dont like to show my weakness...i like apearing like i am stronger then i am...but im not....compared to what i was...im weak now...emotionally i am spent...to the end...god tomorrow is going to be hard....

but anyways...today has been interesting...just watched fox and the hound...i love that movie...and i forgot how sad and bittersweet it was...maybe cus i didnt understand it...but .... it is sad....so i cried...for like 20 mins and i just keep saying "i dont want to say goodbye" while the song goodbye may seem forever" from the movie...i had kinda a break down....and certian lap in judgement...but i came back to my bed and turned on my radio...the song that is playing is one of my favs when i turned it on...the origional version of "give me the beat boys" great song...that made me smile...and then i changed it to a different station and the folling song was playing


You wait, wanting this world
To let you in
And you stand there
A frozen light
In dark and empty streets
You smile hiding behind
A God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to see

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
I'll take my chances while
You take your time with
This game you play
But I can't control your soul
You need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in



i'd heard it before but never listened....it is a great song...means a lot to me right now...