Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes

so today was basically one of the hardest worst days in awhile...

i couldnt sleep cus there were mice in the roof above my head which really isnt much of a roof...just a bunch of fiberglass panels...so i slept up stairs then when my mom woke up i took her HUGE bed...so that was kinda cool....

when i wake up from that my deck has been half ripped up...turns out there were rats living under the floating deck...so mom and me tear up a buch of the boards and leave it to call one of her friends who works in construction...she tells mom that it needs to be all torn up...but just as mom is about to get off the phone...i hear on the tv "burnaby 18 year old missing" ok so i listen...i grew up there and i knwo some of these kids...then the name bromberger comes on...me still not freaking out...maybe i dont know him...then they say his name is brian bromberger....ok so he is 18, and his name is brian....well that just about did it for me...brian was my best friend before i moved here....i used to walk to his house everyday on the way to school with my mom...and we would all walk together....i have been trying to find him for about 4 years now...i wanna talk to him so bad...and now...

i cant stop shaking right now...but i still had to finish the tearing up the deck...so we did...and i feel yucky still...so now i have to find a way to fix my fucking deck and pray that brian comes home safe!

please come home safe...i wanted to see everyone again but not at your funeral!!