fuck

so i pride myself on being honest right?

well im fucking not...im not honest with myself and im not honest with other people!! im just so fuckin confused right now! i honestly dont know what to do...tell him i like him and make things akward forever or keep it to myself and get depressed every time he talks about another girl! i just dont fucking know right now...

i almost told him again...but i fixed that...apparently everyone knew that i liked him last night and he felt bad...so stupid michelle decides to tell him "no dont fell bad" and then right in the fucking middle of the convo my mother comes down with a phone call for me that lasts forever! and he is offline now...

i honestly dont know what to do...i've never been in this spot before. i hate not having control...expecially over my own emotions...last time this happened i didnt get out of bed for...a week? fuck....


help???