lame

i feel really lame right now...i hate being not busy...i loved being in this show and being IMPORTANT! i like feeling like i am doing something...sure college is great but i dont want to spend the rest of my life there...im getting sick of being in college here. i love the people, most of the time. i love the classes but i want to get out there and start my life. i want to be working in a theatre doing what i love. Ross spent basically all of yesterday talking about being an actor...let me tell you...didnt sound to apealing...but i still want to do what i am doing. i want to act i want to do tech hell i want to work at the fucking box office as long as it means i get to do theatre. i want this...i really do.

another brilliant thing happened in my life today...my mother phoned my dad and to hers, and my, suprise...he isnt living at his dad's anymore...hasnt for a few weeks..he is living with Kim...his fucking girlfriend who he has been seeing "for months" now...fucking hell....im so mad at him right now...they are not even divorsed yet....fucking asshole