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life kinda sucks again... i tried being strong and responsible, i got a job, i stopped parting, i cut the "bad" friends from my life. well now here i am with no one... im a fucking failure as a person right now. thats how i feel. i work, i come home and i go to work again. there is no joy in my life anymore. i miss people from school alot. from mal and ballenas. the worst part is i've been here before. grade 10 i was losing everything i was. and then emma leigh came along and i was ok. and now i dont know if i can find someone else like her. im not a good friend. and i dont think i'll find someone else who will put up with me. 

yup im back to the depressing me