i hope you had the time of your life

i am extremly happy right now...but as we know michelle doesnt write about happy things in this blog :P

bryan has been missing for 6 months today...wow....thats unbelievable....i really cant believe this happened. people dont just vanish off the earth. its really worse not knowing. a horrible part of myself just wants some news. this waiting game sucks. in my heart i know that he isnt here anymore. thats a hard fact to come to. i spent soooo many years trying to find the people i went to school with on the mainland. i had just found ashley (one of my best friends over there) and was trying so hard to find bryan only to see him on the news. do you know what that is like? i have now watched 4 friends come on the news after their passing. and its almost worse. it makes you think of every persont that dies that you hear about. there is a family attached to that. there are friends and people who loved them. i've always been a sensitive person but that makes watching the news almost impossible. watching tim's come on the news was probably the worst. they went to my high school and talked to some of the people there...and i couldnt be there. and im not going to be able to be there anymore. high school is supposted to get you ready for the real world. but it really doesnt. it lures you into this false security. false family. and before you know it its all gone.

i really am happy right now guys....i just....im lost.

so with this i leave you....




escape the fate playing vancouver warped tour...im in the front with the camera :D