FUCK IT ALL

i am so sick of people right now.....i can't stand trying to solve everything. my friends are all just screwed up right now....beyond fix. and i am trying to help everyone but it is driving me MAD.......i need help sometimes too...i need people to help me....my dad is moving to calgary for his new job adn i like one of my best friends.....im screwed in the head right now and i dont know what to do....i want to cry but i cant....i feel if i start then i wont be able to stop......EVER!!!!!!!!!! i want an escape..... if only i could go with my dad....start over again.......brand new.....try to find friends that i could actually trust.......people that i could talk to without feeling like im stupid or ebing judged......am i not worth anything to them?